oh kenapaaaaaa

cancer. it's such a big word. it'll be bigger if it applies to you.

let say. one day you're having a very bad headache. the next day, the doctor diagnosed u with a lung cancer.

"whats that gotta do with the very bad headache?" u may ask.

well, the cancer has reached a critical state and it has already spread to the brain.

now, that's when you realise life is not that long anymore.




i know a person in that situation. a very close person. family, in fact.

suddenly i thought, "why am i acting like everything is normal? i don't feel the sadness."

my theories:
1. i've known him since forever. so eventhough he's all sick, i still see him as the healthy person i've known all my life.

2. i'm just in denial. :) i only see what i want to see, i only feel what i want to feel.

3. i'm pretending to be happy when ever i'm with him so that he feel less like he's dying.

i think i should be sad. i must be sad. this is the perfect situation where i'm allowed to show my capability of being a sensitive person.

but how can i be sad when he's all happy like nothing is wrong with him? so confusing.





we didn't see this one coming, we can't. after all, we're just mere humans, with so many weakness.

all thats left for us to do now just is pray.