Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Dreams

I've once read that if a person appears in your dream, in a psychological-ish way, it means that that person is missing you. how true is this, i haven't go a clue. maybe i should do a study on this for my final year project .


I've never really been the type who like to sleep. i still remembered when i was little how sucky it feels like to be forced to take a nap in the evening or to go to bed early at night. it was not like i had anything better to do like watching the teevee or anything. i just don't like sleeping. but when i'm asleep, i really hate waking up :B


on the contrary, when it comes to dreams (or nightmare in some occasion) I've had many collections of them. i think i'm a very active astral projector like that kid in the Insidious movie. its like my astral body has a mind of its own. whenever i'm asleep it would immediately get out and celebrate the freedom by running around naked in the land of dreams. does that make sense?


enough nonsense. since today is a very boring day, i ought to make it more interesting by sharing about my TOP 5 WEIRDEST DREAMS EVER. enjoy :)


1. WHEN THE SULTAN OF JOHOR (father-in-law) AND HIS SONS VISITS ME  :D (visit or masuk meminang i couldn't remember i woke up too soon T.T)
this is hands down THE most amazing dream i've ever had *starry eyes*. everyone who knows me know that 'marrying a Johor royal prince' has been on my to-do list since i laid my eyes on them. hewhew. i think my obsession and strong determination has affected the unconscious part of my brain resulting in such dream. this does not happen once, but twice. yes, TWICE. maybe i should find a new ambition -.-


2. BEING IN A MUSICAL HARRY POTTER MOVIE
not just being in it, i was THE main character in it. so instead of having Harry Potter, you have Farah Potter :D me and my roommate Fatini used to speak to each other in British accent whenever we want to cheer each other up. and she would make the best impersonation or Mary Potter, who according to her is Harry Potter's sister. LOL. in this dream, i remembered shooting a scene where we have to dance a musical number like in high school musical. one messed up dream i tell you.


3. GETTING PREGNANT
now now, don't take me as a very itchy (gatal) person for having such dreams. hahaha. the truth is i love babies and i wish i could have one without having to make one with someone, geddit? anyways, i had two dreams about getting preggie. in the first dream, my water just broke an i was in panic mode while in the second i was pregnant nine months but my tummy is so flat i'm afraid to even breathe takut baby terkeluar. hahahaha. but in both dreams, i have no idea who's the father of my baby. that is very very very sad :(


4. ARRANGED MARRIAGE GONE WRONG
this was a total nightmare. i couldn't get out of it. i remember being alone and very scared and tried very hard to find the guy i'm married to cause i wasn't allowed to see his face during the nikah and he was, i think. avoiding me. and after the nikah our family organised a little party and I WASN'T INVITED. how sadddd to not be invited to your own wedding party :(


5. DATING GERARD WAY 
i had this dream when i was in form 2 if i'm not mistaken. during the days where i blasted MCR's song on my ipod. ohh, the good days. i was crazy about Gerard back then, me and my friend Ana. in fact, the song I Don't Love You was our theme song for year 2006. in my dream, Gerard and i went out on a date at MPSJ. how weird is thatttt?? maybe because around that time me and my friends would always go to MPSJ to jog and train for sports day. and from there we would walk to taipan and along the way we would sing our heart out to the song I Don't Love You. hahaha. once, i actually believed that i could stand a chance against all the other girls and win Gerard's heard and fate would bring us closer no matter how far apart we were. hahahahaha how naive i was!


so, that is all that i could remember for now. if the theory i stated earlier about 'the person in your dream is actually missing you' is true, then i'm very lucky to have Sultan Ibrahim Ismail and Gerard Way missing me ^__^

Friday, June 8, 2012

random ramblings

1. my ear and nose are blocked. i feel so irritated cause i can't enjoy my food. and my impaired hearing has left me feeling out of balance. (is that even possible?)

2. it really bugs me to see how certain people act on fb. i think nabnab was right when she said fb buat dosa bertambah. haha.

3. i think that if you like someone, you shouldn't try so hard on pretending that you don't. cause it shows, really.

4. i am in no mood to do my revision for the finals. so i'm going to my happy place later! :D guess where?





MYDIN

5. i miss having a pet. i think i'm gonna adopt a cat or something soon. or do a voluntary job at the animal shelter ^__^

aren't they adowable?

i need anger management

i just feel like i wanna slap someone for no reason -.-

hmm, maybe its that time of the month. ya know, hormone imbalance and what not. it's getting outta control! but it feels good 8)

anyways, i'm not suppose to blog now cause its study week. blogging feels so...sinful. been sick for the wholeeeee weeek! so i can't really study in peace.

went to the ER just now to get myself checked. dah telan ubat banyak2 tapi tak baik jugak. ottoke! so emak being an emak, decided to bring me straight to the hospital.

i get shivers when i walked around the ER. its my first time going there after my toe incident. when i look at the floor, i remembered the pool of blood..and my screaming *aaaaaaaaaa*...and the stupid doctor who looked so blur i could have slapped him if i wasn't in so much pain.

yeah, i saw that doctor again, after 4 years. the urge to slap him is still there, but not as strong. and that will forever remain as the most terrifying experience i've ever experienced.

went to the bank today to settle some stuff that needed to be settled. all i can say is maybank sucks. haihh, the first time i went to the one near my mother's office. gila lembap! orang nak reactivate atm card pun nak kena tunggu berjam-jam. i got impatient so i just left.

today, i went to the one at bangsar. it took me less then 15 minutes to get my card reactivated. i don't know whether its the place factor or what (bangsar kan ramai datuk-datuk kaya so takleh la biar diorg tunggu macam rakyat jelata yang lain). tapi serious lain gilaaaa service between the two branch.

thats not even the worst part.

i've been applying for something something since february and until now, they have not get it approved yet. everytime i go there, mesti adaaaa je alasan. and everytime i check my maybank2u, belum jugak approve. haihh, hangin betul.

thennnn, just now when i was there to reactivate my card, kebetulan terjumpa abang yang supposedly incharge of the thing that i applied for. HE SAID THE THING IS STILL NOT PROCESSED!

ni yang nak nafs ammarah ni (islamic psychology joke). pastu boleh pulak nak bagi alasan yang macam nak makan penampar. pastu suruh apply baru. apekah? it's already june you freaking imbicile. (haha, i feel so poyo so nak jugak guna imbicile sebab bunyi best)

can you feel the anger in this post? hahahaha, blame it on the hormones :D this post is just to release my built up anger. i don't actually have any specific reason to be angry.

now nak pergi cari makanan. teringin nak makanan durian and sushi! seperately la ofcourse.

toooodles!

p/s: already missing my ali baba. tak sabar nak balik after exam, nak lambung2 si comel itu.

credit: rizal razman's FB

Friday, May 25, 2012

Lost

whats up with ze title? firstly, lemme share a song zat i've been playing on repeat lately :)



ehem ehem.

Today is a bit mellow for me. it's one of those days where you don't know what to feel. i'm not angry, not happy either. just, bleghhh. that word/sound pretty much sums up the way i'm feeling.

Today is the 6th anniversary of Hezril Remmy's passing. ahhh, how time flies. we're all grown ups now and sometimes i wonder how he would turn up if he's still alive. memories that we had together are still fresh in my mind. how could i ever forget?

so many things have changed since. the day he passed away was the first time i learn how it feels like to lose someone. at the time, i've always thought that fourteen is such a young age to face something as awful as death of loved ones. but then again, there are people out there who've lost parents at a younger age and that made me feel thankful that god has not test me with such things.

by now, i've come to accept that nothing last forever and nothing is certain. at some point in life you are going to lose someone or something that you care for so much  whether you like it or not. this year has been the toughest yet for me cause i think i've lost more than one friend. the closest i've ever had.

i dare say that loosing someone to death is easier than loosing someone because there is no other way to be together without hurting each other and people around you. 

don't get me wrong, i'm not gonna write about my love life here (ada ke pun?) so you can relax now.

sometimes i get too caught up with my feelings that i let it interfere with my decision making. maybe i was wrong, maybe i made the wrong decision. but i did what i feel is right at the time.

and then there's the memories. ah, if only i could erase them all and start fresh. it is hard to live knowing that those memories are the only thing that is left of  the friendship that we used to have.

but despite all that, i have no regrets over what happen. i admit i could have been more understanding and react better to the situation, but i did not. and for that i apologize. 

i believe in fate. if it is fated that we shall meet again i the future, then i'll welcome you with open arms. but if it's not, then maybe god has better plan for us :)

hahhhh, it feels good to write it all out ^__^

on another news, i lost my purse. the blue glittery one which everyone thought was a netbook, make up set etc. oh well, it's about time i buy a new purse anyway. siapa yang ambik tu semoga dia mimpi i setiap malam sampai dia muak and pulangkan purse tu. aminnn. heh heh. 

till then, take care people. jangan emo emo ;)

missing my mi amor <3 


Sunday, May 20, 2012

A comeback?

i never really left, just not present in the present :)

Anyways, I've decided that i need to write again. life is just not fun if you can't share it with the world. 

notice the changes? 

Iwan calls me an ustazah -.-

Sunday, April 24, 2011

this is peepeefeet!


i know its an extremely weird name to name a cat. but i am weird like that :)







this little devil is just a stray cat who likes to pretend like she lives in our house. she's super smart and have a talent in persuading people to share food with her. well, she's been away for a very long time so i assume someone must have taken her to live with them cause she's super friendly and tak malu. but to my surprise she came back last two nights. i don't think she's a normal cat, maybe she's a devil or something.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

the end of a beginning

guess who's finishing matrics? heh heh.


how time flies when you're having fun.

FUN?! yeah. right.

matrics is no fun brothers and sisters. but we gotta do what we gotta do, kan? after almost one year living in this hellish place, it's finally coming to an end. yeayyy!


butttttt, that also means that our finals is nearing, fastttt. do pray for me people because if you do then i promise i'll write in this blog more often when i finished this matrics programme. (i know i said that the last time but i really haven't got the time. hehe)


i must say although i really hate to be here and am dying to finish and go back to the comfort of my home, i would really miss my friends that i met here. they are super-dee-duper awesome!
note that nothing is more awesome-r than super-dee-duper awesome.


especially my classmates, because some of them stay as far as terengganu. and all my lecturers, our mentor, akak koperasi (?). ewww, okay that's gross.


i'll definitely miss my dorm neighbours who are all so funny and friendly. my roommates whom i've already consider them as sisters now :') i would miss habsah the most though cause she's staying far away in KL and most because both of us wanted the same things in life, well, most of it anyways. finally i've met someone who is also passionate about being a psychologist as i have always been. as for mahirah, she is practically my neighbour in subang so yeah, i'm gonna see her often even after matrics.


ohh this is so emotional so i'm gonna stop right here. might be posting pictures soon so do wait for it ;)


i end this post with a goodbye and an offer. i really do not know what i'm going to do after matrics. so if you need a maid do call me okay?


LOL okay that was a joke. really, it is. my mum have already booked me for that job. ho ho ho so excited cant wait -.-


till then, have a nice day blogworms! ^__^