countdown dan azam tahun baru

another 7 days till this holiday ends.

6 days left to wake up at 12 in the afternoon.

5 days left to shop for school stuff, unless you're a last minute shopper.

4 days left to still play around n have fun.

3 days left for mind freedom.

2 days left till 2009 arrives.

1 day left till textbook collection day.

prepare for senior year my dear friends. n not to forget, spm '09. yeah baby, bring it on.

it feels like just yesterday i took my upsr result. apeee niiiii cepat sgt membesar!

my new year resolution:

1. ofcourse, strive straight A's for spm n for all other stupid examinations.

2. curse less.

3. be a better friend n daughter than before.

4. increase my sense n knowledge in fashion.

5. socialise more.

6. sembahyang 5 waktu penuh. ngeheh.

7. be a stingy ass n save lots of money.

8. be a better n more caring cat owner.

9. not break any parts of my precious body. again.

10. this is last on my list because every year it will definitely be on this list. but every year, too, i never succeed fulfilling it. i'll just put it anyway. loose more weight. or maintain below 48kg.

no resolution about finding a new bf on my list, thank you.

sweet darlings

hajimemashite?

its been so long since i last wrote on this blog. like everyone else, I've been occupying myself with personal activities that have kept me busy for the past 2 weeks.

my uncle got married last Sunday. me n my family have been helping around to make sure everything is perfect for the big day. well, the wedding was fun. except for the part when me n my cousins was forced to stand under the super blazing hot sun in the middle of the afternoon to distribute door gifts to the guests. dang, even the sunblock couldn't save us. sharinna pun kesian sbb die kena tolong. i actually played a pretty big role for the wedding because i was the one who sew beads n sequins on the bride's dress, just to pimp it up a little so that the bride stands out from the rest on her big day. impressive huh? i knowww. :P boleh bukak kedai jahit farah doeee.

moving on. my uncle's wife, kak rie is a Japanese in case u dont know. for the wedding, all her friends n family from japan decided to fly to Malaysia n stay here for a few days. 2 of her friends were the unlucky ones who did not manage to get rooms at the hotel for themselves. so, my grandaunt, mama miah, let them stay at her house (where i stayed too for the last 2 weeks) for as long as they are here. needless to say, we eventually became very good friends since i see their face everyday at the house. another reason that i think made us very close is that me n my cousins made the effort to talk to them, although it was very hard at first since they dont really speak English like we do. u know, with 'em weird accent. frankly, i think they sound more like the Russian than the Japanese when they speak English. haha! dont care lah. after all, we Malaysians also have our own manglish rite? like the transformers, there's more than meets the eyes with them. after getting to know more about them, they turn out to be actual rock stars. they are 33 years old, one is married n they still can manage to play in a rock band. wow, shocker. i want to be a psychologist/ bellydancer! yeahaaaa. macam boleh.

the bride [kak rie] n the bridesmaids

the penanggahs/door women

orang2 kuat majlis [bride is wearing my creation, fyi]

father of the bride, amy [kak rie's sister] n kak rie.

my two kawaii friends. yuri n yuki

sara, iwan n maria wearing the crew shirt

rockstars! they don't look like one aite?

there are other Japanese friends i managed to get to know. they are mami n hitomi. sadly i didn't have their pictures because we get along just before they went back to japan. mami is really funny, she like the cuti-cuti Malaysia song so much that she asked if she could get the CD of that song to bring back to japan. wtf? are japanese songs that bad? lol, kidding.

from now on, i promise I'll start saving up money so that i can visit japan to meet my friends by the time i finish my spm next year. my new VISIT JAPAN FUND. derma derma derma!

esok nak pegi tgk final sehati berdansa. coolkan? :)

babies n phones!

LG Q KS360

is this cute or cute?

definitely on the top of my christmas list.

birthday also can lah!

once upon a time, i wished to a have kitten.

so that i can name it edward cullen.

n god decided to answer my prayers last week.

my cat, milo the gatal [she like to sleep around n end up getting herself pregnant] safely delivered 2 little pretty kittens.

I've checked the sex of the kittens.

one boy n one girl.

ohhh, i shall name the boy, Cullen n the girl, Hale.

or should i name her Swan?

hale is after Rosalie Hale, she's pretty.

but Swan matches Cullen.

I'm in dilemma.

shouldn't have prayed for this in the first place!

Cullen n Hale/Swan are now my latest obsession.

so is the LG Q KS360.

I'm gonna start my 'LG Q KS360 FUND' soon.

wanna donate?

:D

gila kejap

eeeeee!
korg ni buat aku bapak tension.
is it me or u guys just SUCK?
who? me, u're asking?
yeah, you bastard.
damn you.







any incoming messages/comments/calls will not be entertaint for the moment sayangs.

myspace n facebook n blog or whatever sorts are included.

because i am really really really out of my element n has no mood to comunicate with the world.

lagi satu, jangan buat2 lupa i still hidup. gila sedih dan pilu bila dilupakan.

:D

i'm not dead yet, phewwh!
rasa sangat sayur semenjak dua menjak ini

duduk rumah, tido, makan, tengok teevee, mandi, berak, kencing.

haritu buat big chewy chunky chocolate chip cookies.

gila sedap doeee, tapi diabetic lps mkn sebab byk gula.

xpelah, gula makes sick people happy.

so does chocolates.

semua org nak beli chocs.

never-ending supply weyh.

so sape2 yg nk bg hadiah get well soon, beli chocs oke?

ataupun kalau kaya sikit, belikan la buku breaking dawn.

ini ade dlm wishlist saya :)

1st december 2008

tolong jangan muntah, plis.

ibu jari kaki saya pada hari ini. pimped toe bebeyh.

i'm suffering! :'(

x kesian ke?

hospitalised

sorry for not updating for quite awhile. i'm in no condition to blog. had an accident last Thursday. a very unbelievably stupid yet gruesome accident. as a result, i'm now traumatised n wont be able to walk properly for awhile. i'm officially a prisoner at my own house now. stuck here like a vegetable. bleghhh, tension tau tak. not to forget, the medicines that they've prescribed for me they are really3 getting on my nerve coz they makes me high all the time

conclusion: i'm useless, for now.

oh ya, did i mention that i broke my toe because a table crushed it flat?

yeah, n i managed to get a few stitches for it too.

there were blood EVERYWHERE!

look out for my next entry. i might upload some interesting pictures :)

.over n out.

decode

How can I decide what's right?

When you're clouding up my mind

I can't win your losing fight all the time

No care to ever own what's mine

When you're always taking sides

But you wont take away my pride

No not this time

Not this time

How did we get here?

Well I use to know you so well

How did we get here?

Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes

And its hanging on your tongue

Just boiling in my blood

But you think that I can't see

What kind of man that you are

If you're a man at all

Well, I will figure this one out

On my own

I'm screaming I love you so

On my own

My thoughts you can't decode

How did we get here?

Well I use to know you so well, yeah.

How did we get here?

Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?

We've gone and made such fools of ourselves

Do you see what we've done?

We've gone and made such fools of ourselves, Yeah

How did we get here?

Well I use to know you so well, yeah yeah.

How did we get here?

Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know

I think I know

There is something I see in you

It might kill me I want it to be true

damn son

x sabar gila nak pegi tengok twilight khamis ni. i'm really obsessed with this movie. everyday kalau boring mesti surf youtube cari trailer die, or anything that have got to do with twilight. but the most freaking thing that pisses me off badly is the fact that i cant book the ticket in advanced. i've tried numbers of time this past couple of days, but the results are dissapointing. n today, i tried checking out the gsc website n relieved to found that the tickets are available for online booking. however, gsc cinema is at summit. we all are planning to see that movie at tgv sunway. n guess what? tgv is so suckish that they didnt allow the tickets to be booked online. if i get my hands on the person who's responsible for this, i swear i'll chop off his balls n feed 'em to my neighbour's dog. what if she's a girl? then i'll find something else to chop. hahaaaa, i'm not joking. >:(

asyik asyik twilight. bosan lahhh...

bzzzttttt, next topic.

bought cleo magazine at usj17 kedai mamak just now after having dinner at melur. in the magazine, there's a section about what men do that are big no no's from a girls point of view. cant remember the exact title of the article. but mainly it shows girls comments about fashion faux pas that a men can do. for example like wearing skinny jeans, nail polish or eyeliners n stuff like that. its really funny because the girls who commented was being so honest n i do agree with what they say. anyway, this article inspire me to write my own list of 'guys that turn me off' other than the ones in the article. i had this idea of making this list a long time ago but now i'm truly inspired to let guys out there know what not to do in order to win a girls heart. sadly, i managed to list only 8 things.

guys that turn me off are...

• toothless guys. i mean those front visible tooth. go get a gigi palsu or whatever. just dont let there be a whole cause flies might be wondering in when u smile too wide.

• guys that likes to carry the waist bag. unless u're a peniaga pasar malam, dont ever wear those. people might get the wrong idea of u.

• guys who wears sandals/slippers with stockings. oh goddd, its unforgiving. only the Japanese can get away with it.
  
  


• guys who wear kain pelekat in public, like OU, summit, sunway, mydin, giant n tesco. except when u go to the mosque for friday prayers. other than that, just wear it at home.

• guys who are not aware of the existence of deodorants, perfumes and breath mints.

• guys who looks n smell like he wore 8 bottles of hair gel.

• guys who shops more than i do.

• guys who smoke, drink n take drugs.

think about it, guys. ^^

twilight movie

okay, this is just a promo blogpost.

what am i promoting?

i think you've guessed it.

this movie will be hitting the cinema near you on

27th of november 2008 [thursday]

as far as i'm concern, the book is just to die for. i'm sure the movie will not dissapoint you.

i can guarantee you! kalau tak best, i'll pay the amount of money you've lost for buying the ticket. okay bitches? so yeah, do whatever it takes to get your ass up there in the cinema this thursday. even if u have to rob a bank or jual badan, just do it for the sake of this movie.

.over n out.

indescribable

i think i'm in love. with who? cant tell ya honey! whats for sure is not with you. hahaaa. i've always known i'll fall for the most unexpected person. ohh, what a weakness! rase mcm nak nyanyi lagu lovebug kejap. ;)

anyway, went to watch quarantine last thursday. with kamarul n my two babies. fana ngan shar la, duhh. great movie! me n shar screamed so loud till the person sitting infront of us bengang like hell sampai pusing blkg nak tgk mangkuk mane yg jerit mcm nk kena rogol tu. well, mane x nye, kite 2 org je yg menjerit. yg lain semua bajet x takut xnak jerit. darn, kalau ade boyfren lagi best. boleh jerit2 sambil mengambil kesempatan peluk2, takut konon. geeheeee. i strongly recommend u to watch this thrilling movie.

now i know how it feels to be broke n moneyless. haha. i'm officially broke now. i dunno where all of my money went. xpelah, money is not everything kan? nak kena cari sugar daddy ni. anyone interested? sila isi borang di kaunter 8, terima kasih. terms n conditions apply :D

saje nk letak gamba ni. nak tunjuk kepada dunia bahawa sy dah kurus skrg. b4 this x gemuk pun. :P

lgpun, gamba ini sweet. bff forever saya.

the latest hot thing

wondering whats the latest must-have this holiday season?

well, let me tell u a secret that has been kept just for centuries.

not really that long actually, but u know what i mean.

on a hot n sunny day. u're staying in because the weather is too hot to bear. u can feel your precious skin melts every time u go out into the blaring sun even for a quick second. to make the matter worst, the air conditioner choose not to work for the day. how unlucky. suddenly, the word slurpee n cold.ice.lemon.tea pops into your mind. ahhhh, the idea of it seems so real till u can feel the icy liquid runs smoothly along your throat. heaven!

but instead of a cup of slurpee or super cold ice lemon tea or a pine of mango sherbet from Baskin Robbins. here's one brilliant choice that u cant afford to not try. wanna know what is the biggest secret ever? i know u're dying to know. so i'm gonna just let the picture do the talking.

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TADAAAAAA! shocking huh?

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better better yet, i'm gonna show u the face of the biggest fan of this thing eating this super fabulous summer food ever

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who's that girl? ;P

go get your aiskrim potong today!

it comes in many flavour such as:

• pandan
• corn
• cendol
• red bean
• and even DURIAN

*available only at 99 speedmart usj16 :)

my reason for living :)

i love them, no question ask.

i love them. period.

why, u ask?

i don't dont have the answer

because loving them needs no reason :)

i love them for all the right reasons

and mostly for the wrong ones.

but i cant deny the fact that these people are the reason i keep on living

n breathing

n living

n breathing again

n busting my ass everyday waking up every morning

thankful to know that i'm blessed with them in my life.

whats your reason for living? :)

oh god do me a favour n smack his head

susah sial cakap dgn org yg tak reti bahasa ni.

taknak dengar xpeeee. xde sape susah pun. theres going to be a time when u wont be able to see your wrong doing. instead, u have friends that are always there to be your own personal mirror. think bout that.

i just got the most shocking news everrrr. haha. not so la cause i've prepared for this thing n i know one day it'll happen somehow. we obviously was going no where, with that attitude we wont! i dont really know how to react to this. i feel like saying "all you guys out there are fucking bastards." but its totally not fair to guys who are really sweet n kind that's still out there, somewhere. i know not all guys are the same. but most of the guys i've met n known have proven that fact WRONG. why ahh? i also dunno lehhh.

kenapa mesti sial sangat nk try ramai2 perempuan yang actually related to one another in some way? sungguh tidak faham mengapa. retards.

okay, xnak sakit hati sgt2. cuma tidak faham.

i went to school today. god, nasib baik tak kena marah dengan puan rina sbb sepatutnye hantar interview report dah lama. instead, she welcomed me with cubitan sayang. heheee. but i reallyyyyy hate seeing cik tan's face when she lectured fana n shar about the bio peka whatsoever. tension! rosakkan mood je. bajet nk bwat kelas tambahan mase cuti laaa? mcm la ade org nk dtg.

missing abang naz, akmal n am so muchh. abang2 tersayang yg sgt 'muda'. *wink wink* akmal xleh rindu banyak2 psl die dh ade gf baruuu. hehe. oh, forgot, rindu mummy gak, daddy x sangat. hahaaa. n rindu anas the retard. kenapa tibe2 anas? entah lah. nak jumpe memey n gf akmal. okay dah.

after this i'm going out with my two most lovely soulmate ever. n we all are going to take our brothers n sisters together n go watch madagascar.

till then, toodles noodles~

my self declared holiday

it has been so long since i last stepped my foot at school. let see...8 days if i'm not mistaken? i know people are missing me a lot. :P hahaaa, thats why everyday i get constant messages from my friends asking me to come to school. haha, bajet famous kejap. but seriously, i do get those messages. i'm just simply lazy to even think about going to school. its not like theres anything to do at school. besides hanging around with friends, i'll end up die of boredom there. soooo, best not to go aite? duduk rumah tanam sayur lagi bagus.



what? TANAM SAYUR?! yup, thats my current obsession rite now. why? because i have nothing better to do! i have miraculously gifted hands. green hands! everything i plant actually grows n doesn't turns to shit like i'd expected. haha. once again its in the genes. i have a cute little garden in my backyard. most of the space were occupied by the huge reban kucing at the back of my house, so i cant afford to have a big garden. yesterday, my next door neighbour gave me 2 new plants, out of the blue! one is a baby papaya plant. another one is a chili plant. maybe she's impressed by how talented i am at managing my garden. hehe. i'm not trying to blow my own horns here, okay maybe a little. but i think, all the neighbouring maids envy my garden. there! i've said it. hahaaa. i'll post the garden picture when i have it. prepare to be amaze!



i feel so disconnected from the outside world. hahaa. mcm duduk bwh tempurung. hate to admit this but i really missed school, friends. sudah lama tidak berjumpa rakan2 sekalian.

semalam birthday kawan saya, FAIZ. 11november2008.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!

enjoy the prom without meee! hehe.

ploop ploop tushhhh!

look what i found while googling for monkeys! why did i googled monkey in the first place anyway? hurmm, i'm not sure myself. but this picture really caught my eyes.

this is the right photo that defines the phrase "sharing is caring".i'll definitely try this with my cat :)

this is brian white from the movie stomp the yard.

I HONESTLY THINK HE'S HOT. in the most weirdest way.

you'll be seeing me in this brilliant haircut soon :)

sunday, rain falls

kejadian yg paling memalukan yg pernah berlaku dlm hidup sy berlaku pada hari ini. sumpah, sy tapenah rase malu sebegitu rupa sebelum ini. nak tau kejadian yg sungguh menarik ini? haha, i dun even know how to begin!


okaylah. walaupun berat hati, sy akan sudikan diri juga berkongsi kisah hidup sy dengan anda. pada hari ahad yg lalu, kami sekeluarga dijemput hadir ke majlis perkahwinan rakan sekerja ibu sy. eh jap, bkan dia yg kawin. maksud sy anak dia punya wedding. sy tak berapa kenal rakan ibu sy ini. so sy pun tak tau ape nk expect. dlm pukul 2 kami bertolak ke rumah pengantin yg terletak di peejay (kampung haiqal, haha) hanya dgn berpandukan peta yg diberi pada kad jemputan.


drive drive drive. setiap kali pergi berjalan, semestinya sy yg akan dilantik abah utk jd co-driver/penunjuk arah/pembaca peta/pentengok-belakang-bila-nak-reverse. so sy agak pakar jugak la dlm perihal membaca peta ni. maka pada masa itu sy pun mengarahkan laluan n abah sy pun ikut je. fyi, sy baca exactly apa yg peta tu ckp. xde tokok tambah atau rekaan semata2. serious! akhirnya kami sampai di apartment seperti yg ditunjukkan dlm map. mase tu hujan lebat gila so kami pun cepat2 masuk bwh khemah tanpa menoleh2 lagi. kami nak cepat so kami pun ambik makanan dan duduk senyap2 makan. bangga jugak org asyik pandang2. mungkin sy nampak terlebih lawa pada masa itu.


tiba2, emak sy cuit sy dan bertanya "are you sure we're at the right wedding?" sy yg tension kne makan pkai tgn sbb xde sudu dan garpu pun ckp "mak tolong jgn bwat lawak" dan terus stop mkn. emak ckp die x nmpk pun kawan die yg sepatutnya tuan punya rumah. bila tny dekat org yg tolong angkat2 pinggan, dia pun tunjuk la tuan rumah. sah! bukan rakan sekerja mak. HADOI, RASE MACAM NK FLUSH MUKA NI DLM JAMBAN. kami pun macam bwat2 kenal dan terus makan cepat2 dan blah masuk kereta. sy rase jika sy dipaksa lari pkai bikini satu usj 16 ni pun xleh lwn perasaan malu sy ketika itu.


emak yg masih bersemangat waja nak cari jugak rumah pengantin yg sebenar. setelah keluar dr kawasan itu kami pun pusing2 dan jumpa rumah pengatin sebenar. utk memastikan pisang tak berbuah lapan kali, emak pun masuk dlm khemah dan bertanya kepada tukang hidang nasi betul ke ni rumah kwn dia. setelah org tu ckp ye dan emak dan abah mengajak masuk, sy tetap sangsi dan duduk luar khemah. bila dah duduk ambil makanan barulah tuan rumah keluar. THANK GOD AT LAST WE GOT THE RIGHT HOUSE. surprisingly, dia tau yg map tu salah. dia siap ckp "map tu memang salah. ramai yg pegi sane dulu lepas tu baru dtg sini. jemputlah makan". nasib baik sy takde black belt dlm wushu utk membolehkan sy 'mengajar' pakcik tu. grrr! memandangkan kami ada plan lain lepas tu dan masa byk telah dibazirkan, kami makan cepat2 LAGI SEKALI dan beredar.

kesimpulan: check the fucking map first before posting it. thank you.

later that day, sy pergi ke premiere heroes season 3 dekat gsc pavillion. takdelah gempak mana. tp puas la dpt jadi antara org pertama yg dpt tgk cerita kesukaan ramai. org2 kat situ semua macam agak fanatic. sampai nama mak betul dan mak tipu claire bennet dan nama bapak mohinder suresh pun diorg tau. nasib baik org yg tny trivia tu tak tanya nama anjing claire. sy tau, nama anjing dia ialah mr. muggles :P cousin sy dpt byk hadiah sebab die dpt jwb byk soalan. macam mana dia tau? sebab dia dah download cerita heroes sampai episod 7. smart huh? haha. ade org tu die menang first prize. tp syler pun dia x kenal sape. fucked up loser. xpelah, atleast sy dpt tshirt heroes n popcorn free :)

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love yaaaaaaaa!

kejutan

i'm writing bout surprises today as u can see the title of this entry. this year, my family has held like almost 3 birthday surprises for some of our family members. tonite, just a few hours ago, i went to mama miah's house to surprise her. its her 59th bday today, 1st november 2008. for some of u who dont know, mama miah is my grand aunt (nenek's sister). and i know her name is like the mama mia musical movie. comel je. lagi best shar panggil husband die papa miah. LOL. better than papa piah. lagi awkward. :P

first surprise was for aunty liz. we attack her house at the middle of the night while she was asleep in her baju kaftan. till today when we talked bout surprises, she always ungkit coz when we came to surprise her, she didnt wear her 'undergarments'. haha. u know what i mean.

2nd is papa, mama miah's hubbie. that was when we went to port dickson just to surprise him. he didnt have any clue on what we were doing. lucky for him at that time he was wearing a proper outfit. lol. the trip was funnnnn n we ate barbecue n all. sadly its a one nite trip. well, i cant complain much because it was a full paid trip. ngeeee.

by now i should be a pro when it comes to planning surprises. rule number one, the target MUST NOT know bout the plan. hahaha. duhhh! i suck at being the target coz i'll ALWAYS know. so jangan pandai2 nk bwat surprise utk saye k shar n fana? hahahaha. kidding2. hope today was the last surprise coz to be honest i'm getting bored sneaking n trying hard to keep my mouth shut while doing surprises. bosan dahhhh.

bisexual you, haha!

good news: i won 3rd place in the pertandingan menganyam ketupat (single) and 1st place for pertandingan meneka kuih raya (group). now i'm so proud with myself until i feel like i can fly out the window. korang bleh ke? LOL.



bad news: i'll not be working at baskin robins tomorrow. :( my freaking parents (mostly my freaking mum) wont let me work, EVER! no wonder i'm a spoilt brat. grrrr. i'm big enough to find a decent job for myself rite? but they dont think that way. they feel like i'm too small (maybe because of my height, lol) to be working. they even asked me whether the money that they've given is not enough that makes me want to earn more on my own. watafuck? ofcoz they're not enough! hahaha. money is never enough! didnt anyone ever tell her that? but its not the money i'm going for but its the experience. priceless! plus, farhana said that whoever turn down the job at baskin for 31st is the stupid-est human ever. so now i am one thanks to my brilliant parents!




luahan hati: abah, i am nothing like jaja. me n jaja is like the sky n the earth (bagaikan langit dan bumi?) how can u compare me with her? n yes, i do feel like i'm a better childn person than her. wayyyyyy better if u ask me. n i am not n never will turn out even an inch like her. okay? just because i came home late doesnt mean that i'm turning into a kafir or anything. so chill coz girls just wanna hav fun :D




sajesaje: yesterday, a friend of mine who is 23/24 years old invited me to go swimming at his apartment. watafuck kan? ofcourse i told him (nicely) i cant go because it is too weird n soooo not appropriate for a girl to follow a guy home. gatal siot lelaki2 zaman skrg. tension.

i want to take this opportunity to wish my baby buchuk fana n sue sue basi ;P

good luck for tomorrow

=D

bummed

how does it feel when all the hopes n burdens is placed on your shoulders? the pressure to succeed in academics n whatever shit is all being piled up on your back n u cant even voice out your own choice to lead your own life? its just tiring n frustrating n making me feel like giving up! i dont know how many times i've said this but i never got tired of it. when i stop n take a look at my life, i felt like i'm missing a lot in life. i'd rather be a stupid bimbo bitch than being a smart brainiac who is depressed all the time. people say i should stop thinking n just live my fucking pathetic life while i still can. but honestly, i cant do that. not that i wouldnt, but i just cant. there's too many people putting their hopes on me. until sometimes i feel like its not my dream i'm pursuing, but theirs. at times i do need a little push but not a constant one that pushed me too hard till i reached the edge. sooner or later believe me, no matter how strong i am, i will fall n break to pieces. n when that happens, it will all look bad on me, not them. as perfect as i look, i'm all thorn up inside. eeeeeee! okay la, i'll stop whining about my life. cause i'm freaking super duper happy rite now. i got a call from some guy telling me that

I GOT THE JOB AT BASKIN ROBINS!

YEAY ME!

i'm so proud of myself

;P

newsflash

hows my new layout? nice aite? haha. if u dun like it, then too bad :)

it gives me plessure to know that you're under my spell

lately i feel so stress. i have this feeling like i'm becoming ugly n fat. acne's are popping up from my skin n i feel disgust to look at my own friggin face in the mirror every day. maybe its the hormones imbalance or its that time of month. whatever it is, i hope i'll pass this phase n move on to the next.


is it okay to be ugly n fat? sometimes i feel like being ugly n fat is a crime. most of the ugly people or fat people or the combo of these two get tease for their physical lack in beauty. no matter how nice or sweet or kind or intelligent they are, people always put them in the situation that can make them feel low. like they are the lower class of humans, the unwanted. people shouldn't do that. coz depressed people can turn into crazy or shall i say, mentally ill people. theres enough crazy people out there roaming this world, no need to add more. i dun want my next door neighbour turn out to be a serial killer or whatever. whatever u do, just remember that everything in this world happens like a chain reaction. things u do today will effect your own tomorrow. (so lame)


anywho. i just learn that if u like/love someone, u have to show it. give him/her signs or else he/she wouldnt know. or if u are brave, just tell that person in the face that u like him/her. how will he/she ever gonna know the real thing if u just keep it to yourself n refuse to make any move? its not her fault if he/she ended up turning to other guy/girl. and when that day comes, it'll be too little too late to be sorry.

24.10.08

watched high school musical 3: senior year

last day of exam

job hunting

total: FUN

i look simply weird!

seventeen's cover girl n summer hunk 2009

sekarang baru nk letak gambar raya la?

i'm gonna let the pictures tell u the story of my raya

very simple but fantastic raya

except for the duit raya :)

hidayah, sabrina, afiq. on the first day of raya. semua baju nk kaler same je. cewahh

kasut raya yg dicari hingga ke melaka. hebattt. barney-ish

bombshell n her fav rockstar-to-be cousin. geeheeee.
sape ckp muke budak tu mcm hisyam siap! lol, x pasal2
*no offence hisyam*
note: 1st baju raya



cam whore-ing.
note: 2nd baju raya

budak bajet n bombshell. rakan cam whore-ing. he's bitchy, seriously.

note: 3rd baju raya

tiramisu n strawberry cheesecake. i swear sime darby throw the best openhouse everrrr.

since my mum work with sime darby, every year we'll go to their convention centre to attend their openhouse. the foods there is out of this world!

blame her for my two big twinnies. HAHA.

mouth watering! to all the jakuns, this is what we call kek rebus.

n yeah, it's boiled to cook.

sara (fav 2nd cousin) n sabrina

i look like i'm their mum. heee.

on the last day of puasa, my pak uda made satay for the family. gle gempak coz i'm one of the tukang kipas. panas mcm pg sauna.

look what i discover otw to malacca. what is putat anyway? sounds like pusat. as in the one on your belly.

second discovery for the day. what's with the people nowdays? want cheap publisity? cehhh.

thats all the pic i have for my raya.

cause after raya was my end year exam

so not cool rite?

hope your raya rocked too!