nous certainement rencontrerons un jour mais ne mettons pas vos espoirs trop haut

thats what u call love? gosh man, u've still got lots to learn. i surely had no idea what's your definiton of love. fix yourself, will ya? u really let me down this time.

for you my dearest friend

its very late now to even write. or shall i say early? who cares anyway. i suddenly had this urge to express my current feelings in this precious blog of mine. these thoughts in my head that kept me awake till now, 4.57am.


theres questions popping up that began to make me second guessing myself. am i behaving badly as a friend? are my advices that suckish till no one, or shall i say that specific someone, choose not to take it? all i want to do is trying to help. but clearly it doesnt seems to work, or even make a slightest change to the situation. is it me, i kept asking. but i know the answer, its already in my head ready to spill it to u. its not me, its you!


it may sound absuredly selfish but thats what i think. u may think otherwise, i dont care. okay, maybe i'm known for my horrible mood swings n i tend to behave over-dramatically at times. thats just my reaction, i tried my best not to let it affect the situation. we humans does have limits. in case u havent notice, I AM A HUMAN. not some feelingless alien freak from mars! so, do understand.


all i want is for u to listen. listen to what i have to say, listen to yourself. listen to what people around u are saying. after all, this life is not just about you. stop making yourself as miserable as hell. what ever that upsets u, just let it go n believe me, it will help u to get over it. tell me, how can u get over a thing when u kept holding on to it? everyone hav been through the bad times but we move on because theres so much more to life than just thinking bout what we cant fix or change.


at times i feel like u're treating me like a stranger. why? am i one to u? its just frustrating when u acted so differently. u said u've been hurt by my words n action, like i'm not by yours! like i said before, its not all about u. one thing that i think u forgot is that i am n always will be there when u need me. it doesnt matter if we dont see each other's faces often. we can still tell each other stuffs. its doesnt make any diff.


i have my reasons not to see u when u asked to see me. but when i asked u about ur probs, u refused to tell me. how am i suppose to help if u're not trying to help me help u?? u're the one who told me theres no secrets between us. i guess its easier said than done huh?


i'm not writing this to play the blame game. i'm here because i need u to know what i feel inside. we've been busy arguing n failed to have a proper grown up conversation. if u've found a better friend that can take over my place than i'm happy u did. what else can i say? stop making your life miserable damn it.

countdown dan azam tahun baru

another 7 days till this holiday ends.

6 days left to wake up at 12 in the afternoon.

5 days left to shop for school stuff, unless you're a last minute shopper.

4 days left to still play around n have fun.

3 days left for mind freedom.

2 days left till 2009 arrives.

1 day left till textbook collection day.

prepare for senior year my dear friends. n not to forget, spm '09. yeah baby, bring it on.

it feels like just yesterday i took my upsr result. apeee niiiii cepat sgt membesar!

my new year resolution:

1. ofcourse, strive straight A's for spm n for all other stupid examinations.

2. curse less.

3. be a better friend n daughter than before.

4. increase my sense n knowledge in fashion.

5. socialise more.

6. sembahyang 5 waktu penuh. ngeheh.

7. be a stingy ass n save lots of money.

8. be a better n more caring cat owner.

9. not break any parts of my precious body. again.

10. this is last on my list because every year it will definitely be on this list. but every year, too, i never succeed fulfilling it. i'll just put it anyway. loose more weight. or maintain below 48kg.

no resolution about finding a new bf on my list, thank you.

sweet darlings

hajimemashite?

its been so long since i last wrote on this blog. like everyone else, I've been occupying myself with personal activities that have kept me busy for the past 2 weeks.

my uncle got married last Sunday. me n my family have been helping around to make sure everything is perfect for the big day. well, the wedding was fun. except for the part when me n my cousins was forced to stand under the super blazing hot sun in the middle of the afternoon to distribute door gifts to the guests. dang, even the sunblock couldn't save us. sharinna pun kesian sbb die kena tolong. i actually played a pretty big role for the wedding because i was the one who sew beads n sequins on the bride's dress, just to pimp it up a little so that the bride stands out from the rest on her big day. impressive huh? i knowww. :P boleh bukak kedai jahit farah doeee.

moving on. my uncle's wife, kak rie is a Japanese in case u dont know. for the wedding, all her friends n family from japan decided to fly to Malaysia n stay here for a few days. 2 of her friends were the unlucky ones who did not manage to get rooms at the hotel for themselves. so, my grandaunt, mama miah, let them stay at her house (where i stayed too for the last 2 weeks) for as long as they are here. needless to say, we eventually became very good friends since i see their face everyday at the house. another reason that i think made us very close is that me n my cousins made the effort to talk to them, although it was very hard at first since they dont really speak English like we do. u know, with 'em weird accent. frankly, i think they sound more like the Russian than the Japanese when they speak English. haha! dont care lah. after all, we Malaysians also have our own manglish rite? like the transformers, there's more than meets the eyes with them. after getting to know more about them, they turn out to be actual rock stars. they are 33 years old, one is married n they still can manage to play in a rock band. wow, shocker. i want to be a psychologist/ bellydancer! yeahaaaa. macam boleh.

the bride [kak rie] n the bridesmaids

the penanggahs/door women

orang2 kuat majlis [bride is wearing my creation, fyi]

father of the bride, amy [kak rie's sister] n kak rie.

my two kawaii friends. yuri n yuki

sara, iwan n maria wearing the crew shirt

rockstars! they don't look like one aite?

there are other Japanese friends i managed to get to know. they are mami n hitomi. sadly i didn't have their pictures because we get along just before they went back to japan. mami is really funny, she like the cuti-cuti Malaysia song so much that she asked if she could get the CD of that song to bring back to japan. wtf? are japanese songs that bad? lol, kidding.

from now on, i promise I'll start saving up money so that i can visit japan to meet my friends by the time i finish my spm next year. my new VISIT JAPAN FUND. derma derma derma!

esok nak pegi tgk final sehati berdansa. coolkan? :)

babies n phones!

LG Q KS360

is this cute or cute?

definitely on the top of my christmas list.

birthday also can lah!

once upon a time, i wished to a have kitten.

so that i can name it edward cullen.

n god decided to answer my prayers last week.

my cat, milo the gatal [she like to sleep around n end up getting herself pregnant] safely delivered 2 little pretty kittens.

I've checked the sex of the kittens.

one boy n one girl.

ohhh, i shall name the boy, Cullen n the girl, Hale.

or should i name her Swan?

hale is after Rosalie Hale, she's pretty.

but Swan matches Cullen.

I'm in dilemma.

shouldn't have prayed for this in the first place!

Cullen n Hale/Swan are now my latest obsession.

so is the LG Q KS360.

I'm gonna start my 'LG Q KS360 FUND' soon.

wanna donate?

:D

gila kejap

eeeeee!
korg ni buat aku bapak tension.
is it me or u guys just SUCK?
who? me, u're asking?
yeah, you bastard.
damn you.







any incoming messages/comments/calls will not be entertaint for the moment sayangs.

myspace n facebook n blog or whatever sorts are included.

because i am really really really out of my element n has no mood to comunicate with the world.

lagi satu, jangan buat2 lupa i still hidup. gila sedih dan pilu bila dilupakan.

:D

i'm not dead yet, phewwh!
rasa sangat sayur semenjak dua menjak ini

duduk rumah, tido, makan, tengok teevee, mandi, berak, kencing.

haritu buat big chewy chunky chocolate chip cookies.

gila sedap doeee, tapi diabetic lps mkn sebab byk gula.

xpelah, gula makes sick people happy.

so does chocolates.

semua org nak beli chocs.

never-ending supply weyh.

so sape2 yg nk bg hadiah get well soon, beli chocs oke?

ataupun kalau kaya sikit, belikan la buku breaking dawn.

ini ade dlm wishlist saya :)

1st december 2008

tolong jangan muntah, plis.

ibu jari kaki saya pada hari ini. pimped toe bebeyh.

i'm suffering! :'(

x kesian ke?