the best day

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on

I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run

Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold

I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall

But I know you're not scared of anything at all

Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away

But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean

I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys

And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away

And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school

But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you

Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay

But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger

God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run

And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three

You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me

It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs

And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall

I know you were on my side even when I was wrong

And I love you for giving me your eyes

For staying back and watching me shine

And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say

That I had the best day with you today

my silly teacher

my class teacher, Puan Noradzlinda IM-ed me on facebook just to say this:

"sorry ganggu.. cikgu nak mintak tolong sikit.. husband cikgu
tak cukup neighbor, boleh add farah jadi friends dia?"

"kesian kat dia.. nak upgrade farm tapi tak cukup neighbor."

-.-"

my class teacher is so cool.

camerakurakuramarama

i want to buy a new digital camera. anyone wants to suggest anything?

it must be:

NOT SO EXPENSIVE RM400-600

NOT SO BULKY

NOT SO LOUSY

NOT SO GAY?

i'm desperado but i'm too lazy to google. teehee.

limit

every person in this world has their own limit point.

it shows how much pain one can endure, how tough they are, how patient they are, how strong they are at keeping up with the nonsense that other people create for them.

but what happens when a person have reached his/her limit point and realize that they couldn't take it anymore?

they break.

as for me, every time i felt like breaking, i kept telling myself,

"I'm flexible, i'm stretchable. i'm like a rubber, and rubbers don't break."

yeah, they don't. but hearts do.

what would you do if...

two of your friends fight and you know one of them is at fault while the other one is suffering because of it?



heh. no comment.

i'm like a dwarf and you're like?

so, intan, sera and i went to strawberry fields for dinner today. well, early dinner at least since it was only 6.30 then. we were having so much fun chitchatting UNTIL....


jeng jeng jeng!


a kid came out of nowhere and ask for donation. he said he was from an orphanage and he's collecting donation by selling this 'minyak urut' wtf.


first thing about him that pisses me off is the fact that he asked for a specific amount of money. say, 10 bucks. aren't donation suppose to be like 'suka-hati-kita-lah-nak-bagi-berapa-ringgit'? any amount will do as long as its sincere, right?


second, was his shitty attitude that made me feel like slapping him on the lips (sepak bibir, inside joke) the conversation between us sounded something like this:


kid: assalamualaikum. kak, saya dari rumah anak2 yatim nak mintak derma...blabla...minyak ni 10 ringgit...blablabla.

intan: sorry la dik, kitorang takde duit kecik.

kid: kak, ni untuk rumah anak2 yatim kak.

intan: tapi kitorang tengah tunggu mak kitorang datang. and kitorang pun bawak duit cukup2 nak makan. (seriously)

kid: kak, tolong la ni untuk rumah anak2 yatim.

intan: mintak maaf banyak2. kitorang memang takde duit kecik.

kid: akak tukar la duit. (WHATAFUCKKK)

*we were so pissed by now*

intan: far, awak la cakap dengan dia.

me: dik, kitorang memang takde duit kecik. ape kata adik pergi mintak dengan orang lain. *i made a face*


hahaha. i'm so evil, i know. but somebody gotta teach that kid some manners. he's so pushy and rude. at last, i gave up and gave him 1 buck to make him leave. after that, he left, walked right past intan and intan heard him said something like, "ada duit tapi taknak bagi"


again. WHATAFUCKKKK?!


suka hati bapak aku la nak bagi berapa pun. anak yatim ke, anak ape ke, kisah ape aku. kalau perangai macam tu, tak guna mintak sedekah. pegi jual cd porn je lagi baik dari buat dosa sakitkan hati orang.

i'm actually very cool when it comes to people asking for donation. i'd give everytime anyone ask, except for when i don't bring enough money or when that person asking for it looks like someone who would enjoy the money by buying drugs afterwards or something.

but this kid was really pathetic and ..... what's 'tak sedar diri' in english? hah, that!

okay, i'm letting it go know. fuhhhh~

fana's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANAAAAAAAAA!

22.10.2009

not everyday your bestfriend turns seventeen. fana has *finally* joined the sexy seventeen club yesterday. so we went to a restaurant in bangsar to celebrate. the place was awesome, so was the people who came. but the shisha kinda sucked. it was like sandpaper against my throat. okay, i'm being overdramatic. tapi i terer boleh keluarkan asap dari hidung. sikit ;)

**birthday girl**

okay, next on the list is my birthday. i nak buat birthday party dekat mcd. tak main la party dekat club. lol.

team who?

HOT

SIZZLING HOT

oh my,

i'm definitely on team jacob.

so long, edward cullen.

credits to eonline.com

to my pretty boy,

Corey's eyes are like a jungle

He smiles, it's like the radio

He whispers songs into my window

In words that nobody knows

There's pretty girls on every corner

That watch him as he's walking home

Saying, does he know

Will you ever know?

You're beautiful, every little piece, love

Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone

Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for

I hope your life leads you back to my door

Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful

Corey finds another way to be

The highlight of my day

I'm taking pictures with my mind

So I can save 'em for a rainy day

It's hard to make a conversation

When he's taking my breath away

I should say

'Hey, by the way'

You're beautiful, every little piece, love

Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone

Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for

I hope your life leads you back to my door

Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful

If you and I are a story

That never gets told

If what you are is a daydream

I'll never get to hold

At least you'll know

You're beautiful, every little piece, love

Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone

Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for

I hope your life leads you back to my front door

Oh, but if it don't

Will you stay beautiful?

taylor swift - stay beautiful

best advice ever

met a distant aunt of mine at my uncle's funeral on thursday.

aunt: how old are you? buat apa sekarang?

me: seventeen. SPM tahun ni.

aunt: ohh, dah besar daaahhhhh. lama betul tak jumpa.

me: ... *smiles*

aunt: cepat eh diorang ni besar sekarang.

mum: haha, tulaa.

aunt: takpela, as long as diorang tak mintak kawin cepat sudah.

me: ??

aunt: aunty dulu kawin umur 18. believe me, i know. don't repeat my mistake.

me: heheh. *speechless*

DAMN, that is exactly what i planned on doing!

cheers!

the pretty old haunted castle

I've delayed this post for too long now. hehe. now i have a purpose to blog again :)

these are the pictures i managed to take during my visit to Carey Island a few months back. i don't remember when that was though, but i do remember that it was an awesome trip! well, not exactly a trip, my mum went for some course thingamajig there. so, my father brought us along to pick her up after she finished.

while we were there, my mum suggested that we visit a few interesting places there. one of them is the Hatter's Castle. "how come there's a castle in the middle of the palm oil plantation?!" i thought. but it turns out to be that the castle belongs to the founder of the island. i don't know how true is that because wiki clearly stated that some guy named Valentine Carey found the island. who cares.

anyways, the castle didn't look like the typical stereotype castle. it was more like an old-fashioned bungalow house with a huge ass yard and a creepy atmosphere. but its was so beautiful i almost cried :') now, let the pictures do the talking, shall we?

huge ass garden view taken from the upstairs balcony.




spot the owl.


creepy tree and the garage.

cute eh? :D

creepy tree no. 2. there's three of them all together.

wardrobe, a walk in type. one of them even have a secret passage to allow the owner to escape in case there's an emergency. useful during the Japanese occupation.

the driveway taken from the living room.



before we ended the castle tour, we asked the caretaker whether there have been any 'funny' things happened before at the castle. at first he refused to tell us but the he gave up. he said, there's this one time when he was doing his routine rounding to check whether all the switches have been switched off. he walked into the living room absent-mindedly and said "assalamualaikum" out of habit, and suddenly, somebody answered "waalaikumussalam" out of nowhere.

when we asked what kind of ghost he normally encounters, he said a ghost dressed in colonial era outfit have been seen around the castle, with a rifle in his hand.

how can a Caucasian ghost greets "waalaikumussalam"?

that's the mystery.

i can't smile without youuu.

god bless this ugly child.

i saja nak upload gambar kat sini eventhough dah upload kat facebook :D

this is, as u all have guessed, my baju raya for this year. i was suppose to buy one in blue *winkwink*, but it was hard to find one that can fit perfectly on me. as my body is "unproportional" in a way. lol. so i just bought this one because the kakak indon said the bright colour compliments my fair skin. awww. that kakak indon also gave a a crash course on how to wear the kain pario that came along with this outfit. fuh, it wasn't easy i must say. imagine the risk of having to face with public humiliation when the kain pario can fall at any time. okay why am i crapping and telling u all this? jeez.

and so i got bored with blogging. wanna know why? because now i play farmville at facebook! wanna be my neighbor? hahaha.

i can't believe i'm turning eighteen 3 months from now! ohmygosh! i'm getting old :(

when i was younger, i used to say, "ohhh, lambat nye nak besar. tak sabar nak habis skola and pergi club and drive and boleh pergi mengundi... -.-" ni especially masa form 2 la. but now when i'm getting close to be able to do all that, i realise that i don't want to grow up just to be able to do all that. i am willing to give up all of that so-called freedom just so that i can stay this way, young and innocent, as long as i can.

but i do wanna grow tall no matter what :)

now at this age i always say things like, "grrr, gila lambat nak besar. tak sabar nak kawin" or "bila la nak besar and jadi kaya gila and tinggal kat UK." but i know that when the time comes, i will not want the same things as i want now. i just want to stay the way i am now and not grow and pray for the time to stop.

can you imagine yourself being old? i know i cant. i hope even when i'm older, my mind will stay the same, only wiser. i wanna be as fun, (hahaha, me? fun? i know) open-minded and cool as i am now. cehh, in other words, i dont wanna turn out like my mum. KIDDING! although my mum makes the funniest old-people-lame-jokes. i once told her this, "mother, now i know where i got my lame genes from -.-"

haha, i call her 'mother' when i'm annoyed with her. just like when she calls me 'farah' when she's angry at me. my grandaunt calls me 'farah deeba' when she doesnt get any response from me after calling me by my real name. my uncles on the other hand, call me 'farah debab' because they think its funny. how sad.

okay enough crapping. i'll shut now, thank you.

hiding from the spotlight

today is one of the day that made me realize how clumsy/reckless/stupid i am. i missed the section C chemistry paper 1. i swear i've checked and i thought i've done it. oh well, at least i managed to answer half of it during the last few minutes.

its nice to know there are people who love you as much as you love them.

i have a big plan for next month *winkwink*

FABULOUS FINDS:

leopard print crocs.

diha has a pair in brown :)

owl necklace.

the one i saw at sunway was purple in colour with a splash of turquoise and pink. see it here

F21

F21
F21

dorothy perkins

F21

F21

dorothy perkins


dorothy perkins

dorothy perkins

why i need barbiturate

semalam i mimpi i pergi supermarket nak cari mars bar, tapi i tak jumpa yang single packet punya. i pusing satu kedai and all i found was yg mini packs n yang 4 in 1 packs. sedih kan?



and then i mimpi lord voldemort tengah hunt i. konon2 macam i ni harry potter female version. i naik kereta malam2, pastu dia panjat bumbung kereta i lompat2. pastu tiba2 ada part pasal hari sukan sekolah pulak. what the?



i have trouble sleeping lately. last night, everytime mata i lelap, its like ada orang inject adrenalin dalam badan i. i pun guling like crazy sambil moaning and grumbling, sampai i decide nk tidur duduk sebab tension sangat.



a few nights before, i went to bed dengan hati yg duka lara. hahaha. then i bangun pukul 3 pagi, moaning non stop for a moment and then sambung tidur blk. malam kelmarin adik i ckp i moaning dalam tidur, almost like mengigau. kali ni i did it unconciously. apa yang sedih sangat?? i pun taktau.



i've come to a conclusion. i rasa i kena sampuk. hahaha. tapi bulan puasa ni takda *wooooooooo*. u get what i mean, kan?



so i found a website that can translate the meaning of dreams and this is the interpretation of my dream:


Searching

Psychological Meaning: What are you trying to find? Your dream search may symbolise the quest to find something physical, emotional, intellectual or spiritual. You may be searching for a new way to solve an old problem. If you dream of searching for someone you know, you may be anxious about your relationship with that person and want to end the emotional separation. Are you sure that this search is worthwhile or is the dream reflecting your feeling of hopelessness?


Mystical Meaning: Perhaps your dream is a spiritual search. Myths such as the King Arthur’s knights’ quest for the Holy Grail may be describing the inner process of spiritual transformation.



i think my dream ada mystical meaning :D

chumi and the froggies

(macam nama band siot)

i want to blog about something but i dont know what i should blog about :)

so, i'll just blog about random things.

yesterday i went to a golf club for buka puasa. as usual, buka puasa ofcourse buffet style punya. and mind you, i HATE buffet. first; cause i'm a light eater, its such a waste. so don't ajak me pergi buffet at hotels and save your money, haha. second; cause i hate watching people pile up food on their plate with their tamak face. like they've not eaten for weeks.

after buka puasa, we all headed back to mama miah's house. we celebrated yana's birthday! blow candles, watched miss universe, and makan duku langsat sambil duduk bersila depan teevee -.- hahaha. we are so kampung but thats just how we roll, bebeh. but my family is so cool. my cousin brought her bf with her, and to my amazement, my family tak macam judgemental or anything. so i told my mum, "nanti if awa ade bf awa nak bawak pegi family events jugak la."

i said IF. and she said okay.

i disected a frog at bio tuition just now. in fact, i disected a few of them. i'm so proud of myself! i like them better when they are dead. but they're really2 smelly! dead or alive. i still cant get the fishy smell, or should i say the froggy smell, out of my head. jeeez, its torturing!

someone brought something like this one, freakishly big! n it's heart keep on beating even after it's been cut off from the body.

my holiday is not that great. maybe its because of the fasting month. cant go to kopitiam to lepak, too hungry do do anything. so i just stayed at home, paint my room. only go out of the house for tuitions and bazaar ramadhan. yes, i'm so devoted to my studies i haven't miss any tuitions yet. heh heh. *kening kening* (as amer arif would put it, inside joke)

so tomorrow's the fifth day peeps. i'm going out for berbuka *sigh* maybe i need to socialize more, hehe. have a great fasting people!

me and the paint brush

song of the mo' :

honest mistake - the bravery

my guitar rock jam :)

tengah cat my bedroom. nanti i post pictures if ada masa.

cuba teka colour ape! ^^

puasa kali ni tak macam puasa dulu2. now if pegi bazaar, i akan beli maximum 2 items je. bukan 10 macam last year.

maybe coz wisdom tooth i baru tumbuh. so i'm wiser now. hahaha.

selamat berpuasa, blogworms!

i am so angry my head can explode.

"i hate almost everything about you. and yet i am still here, attached to you like glue."

10 things about me that i feel like sharing:

1. my current credit balance is RM17.60($.$)

2. someone have a problem with my stubbornness.

3. i don't get to watch g.i. joe because i wasn't invited.

4. my addmaths paper2 was freakishly hard like mad.

5. i just got a new (lame) phone 2 days ago.

6. i got RM52 in my tabung.

7. i feel like grabbing everything i see and stuff them in the washing machine. *cleaning mode*

8. i will not be going for the 10 hour biology seminar thingy.

9. i can't wait to buy my red kebaya.

10. someone needs to tell my bestfriend that he needs to stop smoking.

the forgotten.

i just had another dream of him last night.

we, the family, talked bout him during dinner yesterday. i told them how he's been appearing in my dreams like he's still alive and not yet dead. and they told me it happens because i've not been praying for him. and he thinks i've forgotten about him or something.

to tell ya the truth, i always remember him. how could i forget? up to this moment, i still couldn't believe that he's gone for good. in all my dreams that i had that has him in it, he's not really gone. although we know that he's no longer alive, but we also know that he always come home to visit us.

how can a dead person come and visit?

maybe in reality, they do. spiritualy i mean. but we couldn't see them. if we couldn't see something, doesn't mean its not there, rite?

when i told my mum this morning about the dream that i had, she told me that i should pray for him more. she said that when he was alive he had loved me unconditionally. so i should show mine by praying for him when he needs my prayers the most, which is now.

him.

sometimes we choose not to remember something or someone because we know how much pain we will have to deal with if we choose otherwise.

not interested

song of the mo' :

search and destroy - iggy pop and the stooges

so, today's bio paper was okay. i'd rate it 5/10. mainly 'cause the first 2 questions was from the few chapters that i really focused on revising the night before. usually, i leave my bio paper2 almost 3/4 blank, this time only 1/4 of it was left blank. LOL. never in my life i studied bio like i did for this exam. *pat on the head*

in other news, i heard that somebody 'talked' about me behind my back to my best friend. i don't really care if people wanna talk and complaint about me, but constantly doing that to all my closest friends? gosh, is that pathetic or what?

at first, i'm totally cool with this person talking about me to my friends. i thought, hey, maybe he needs someone to talk to and something to talk about. everybody does. but something happened recently that made the relationship between us tensed a bit. but i don't think i was my fault things ended up the way it did 'cause honestly, i was just being nice and trying hard not to hurt his feelings.

but he doesn't realize this. so next time i'm just gonna say things straight the way i feel bout it and stop trying to compose it in pleasant words just so that they won't hurt his feelings. there's no point doing that when he doesn't care bout what i think and what i want. i am what i am, and i want what i want! haha, sound like a big bossy bitch, eh?

my main point is, i don't appreciate people telling me what i should do and how i should treat my friends or how i should behave. if u feel that i'm not treating you good enough or the way that u think u deserve, then that is not my problem. u should really go check yourself, maybe there's something wrong with YOU, not me.

and i really think that friends shouldn't date one another. end of story.

chaos

song of the mo' :

i wanna love you forever - Jessica Simpson

i'm now in the middle of reading Jodi Picoult's vanishing acts. apart from that, i tried reading Stephenie Meyer's the host. but i gotta say, its not her best piece so far. its too early to tell really cause i haven't finish reading yet. exams! pfftt.

my book-shopping list:

1. harry potter and the chamber of secrets

2. harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban

3. harry potter and the goblet of fire

4. harry potter and the half blood prince

5. harry potter and the deathly hallows

6. the tales of beedle the bart

7. the magician's nephew

8. the lion, the witch and the wardrobe

9. the horse and his boy

10. prince caspian

11. the voyage of the dawn treader

12. the silver chair

13. the last battle

and all Jodi Picoult's and Cecelia Ahern's books. after i'm finished with all these, i'm gonna start reading lord of the rings. oh god, i hope it doesnt bore me to death. i'm so not into hobbits and creepy old man with excessive facial hair. i'm more like a vampire-werewolf person (cehhh), but i'll try.

if u're asking about my future plans, this is all i got. really.

screw the future people!

love ya'll.

she's a genius

thats the title of my current favourite song.

she's a genius - JET

i dedicate this song to all the ladies out there who doesnt feel afraid to be weird and different from others. we're the ones who makes the world go round.

oh betapa tandusnya blog entri ku!

straight to the point, without making any stupid excuses.

i admit that i'm supercalifragilisticespialadociously lazy to post on my blog. in fact, i'm lazy to do almost everything. like waking up in the morning and force myself to shower. or eat dinner. or replying text messages. or answering my goddamn phone. or going out to the mall. or flush the toilet after i'm done with my business. haha, i'm lazy like thatttt. although the last one is obviously not true.

the only thing that i cant afford to be lazy is when it comes to study. now is the panic season, i bet all the candidates for SPM 2009 are feeling the exam heat and have started putting on their nerd glasses and thinking caps. and for some, started to boil the biology and history books and notes and drink the essence in hopes to ace the respective subjects in the trial exam.

as for me, i'm pretending to be busy, reading books and stuff to make the people around me feel the pressure even more. haahaa.

i just had one of the most unacceptable/ridiculous/childish/annoying conversations of my life a few hours ago with a person that i believed could have save me from facing the worst nightmare of my life. to bad that person crushed my hopes :( thank you so much, that person.

i wish i can fly away far from here and only come back when i feel ready. can i skip the phase of my life where i need to have affairs with books instead of men? can i have a life where all i need to do to keep on living besides eating is reading story books? or better yet, living the life of a fictional character of my choice?

life ain't that sweet, honey.

to end this entry, i would like to promote my school's prom nite that will be held at THE ROYALE BINTANG (near the curve) on 19th of december 2009.

the tickets available are:

RM98 per person

RM193 per couple

RM950 per table (10 people).

don't u dare tell me the price is expensive. u do want it to be the best prom nite ever, rite? :)

payments can be made to me or through other prom committee members. and no, partner of the same gender is not considered as a couple. thank you very much.

harry who?

harry potter has lost its magic. it's becoming more and more boring each time. i watched it with diha, saiful, amer and ikhwa yesterday at sunway (where else!). it was the longest 3 hours of my life. i've never before watched a movie that made me so restless until i felt the strong urge to walk out of the cinema halfway through the movie. harry potter and the half blood prince was the first.

that is how uninteresting the movie is. no kidding. but i still love the movie anyway. i will definitely watched the next movie which is if i'm not mistaken Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. have any idea when it will be premiered?

my life have been really hectic in the past weeks. magazine stuff and studies and personal life, things that kept me occupied and caused me to have sleepless nights. what can i say, i'm a workaholic! i realized that i have no idea how to be a magazine editor, there's so much thing to do and more things to learn. ITS DAMN HARD :( at times i feel plain stupid and lost.

here are the pictures from yesterday's late lunch at kenny rogers:

bestfriend yang emo.

perempuan yang ada new bf tapi taknak mengaku. heheh.

siapa ni? dia duduk dekat meja kitorang pastu makan ayam pakai tangan.

bakal ahli kelab used-to-be-a-brace-face!

amer belanja :)

life is sweet.

better than titanic

these are the few romance movie that i would like to share with you, my wonderful blogworms!

old old old pictures

today's post is all about the past. way back when i was in form 2.

those good ol' days, there's no chance i'll ever gonna forget all the memories.

meaningful year. the year that i had my first boyfriend :(

*RIP first boyfriend*

i got myself into three different relationship with 3 different guys that year. i admit, i was goddamn stupid at the time.

the year that i had a really big fight at school, with that fugly fat *insert vulgar word here that rhymes with witch*. i was totally innocent, the victim of the situation. haha.

i discover many new things. meet new people that are way beyond my circle of friend. did lotsa stupid things that i felt like doing and definitely worth doing.

its like i see the world with a pair of new eyes when i was in form 2.

cermin toilet rumah shar :)

i still have that shirt and jeans, they still fit. shar (right) on the other hand couldn't fit into her jeans anymore. lol, jangan mengamuk shar.


the most memorable pictures of the bunch (ignore the horny face).
edited by akmalsayang ;)



now i'm 3 years older,
seventeen,
finishing high school,
less drama.






my new featured song is awesome!

i left my footprint on your ass

like always, i have lots to write about. its been awhile since i my last 'real' post. but nowadays i feel like i can't just write about anything i want here in my blog. because certain things that i would like to write about are rather sensitive, to me and to some people.



although names will be changed, but i know people would still suspect something is not right. and the one situation i can stand being in (besides being ask about my personal life) is when people ask me about the matters of my blog post. its like freaking awkward, man! what's in the blog stays here, reality is another story.




i am a totally different person when i blog, I'll switch into my alter ego character, my own version of Mr. Hyde. haha. and sometimes, things that i write here are written with the purpose of just wanting to let it all go, wanting to release the burden so that i can be free of it to be able to move on with life.




in life, we can't afford to hold on to things that tend to hold us back from reaching whats better in life. for example, bungee jumping. how can you experience the excitement of adrenalin rushing through your veins, which is the main purpose of bungee jumping, if you don't let your hands off the railing?




let go, don't think too much of what might come next, be a free man. a free man is a happy man :) that's what I'm doing, letting go of whatever that upsets me.




DON'T SAY YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET GO. WELL, I'M GONNA TEACH YOU HOW.

you're gonna have to let yourself feel the pain, embrace it, live it, love it baby! tell yourself that there are more pain to feel in days to come and this is just like a pinch on the arm. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

learn from it. look back and see where you went wrong. put your ego aside and admit it that you did mess up, but never ever ever feel bad about it. everyone make mistakes! you can't turn back time and fix it, can you? what you can do is learn from it and try not to repeat it again in the future.

when you're ready, create an imaginary box with pretty flower and butterfly prints on it. fill the box with all the sadness, anger, frustrations and bad memories before putting the cover on and tying it securely with a red ribbon with yellow polka dots.

now put that box on the roadside of your life, wave goodbye to it with a smile and walk forward.

continue on with your life and when you've achieve what you wanted but didn't get the chance to have it before, then you shall take a look back and you will see that very box by the roadside with that red ribbon with yellow polka dots and pretty flower and butterfly prints.

and you'll say, "what a pretty box, i wonder what's in it?"

but you will have better things to do like drinking tropical punch with a slice of pineapple and a mini umbrella on the rim by the beautiful beach of your imagination than wasting your time opening that pretty-looking box.

bing!

"I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier,

I know that the clubs are weapons of war,

I know that diamonds mean money for this art,

But that's not the shape of my heart."

-sugababes feat sting.

its rockin

EDITORIAL BOARD MEETING

Monday, 22 June 2009

1.40 - 2.30 pm

ruang legar

be prepared with ideas,

bring whatever necessary,

be there or be square :)

yours faithfully,

holiday's over, get back to work

firstly, i'm writing it here because i'm too lazy to log in into the permata blog. so yeah, listen people.


ed board members, please la be proactive. start doing your job from now. sorry i can't always tell u what to do. i think what i've explained to u guys are enough.


and sorry for the slow progress of the magazine. blame the exam. now we're doing all the reports on the events that took place at school. and the pictures just arrived, i'm sorting them out to be send to the printer.


fund-raisers, start selling the advertisements. creatives, now is the perfect time for u guys to design the cover and stuff. photography? *crickets* i wonder why i'm getting all the pictures from teacher? whyyy? and reporters, well, all i know is that syazana and azlyn is doing all the work.


and to anyone out there who have ideas that u wanna share to make the magazine more interesting, just see me okay. i'll be beyond happy if u could contribute some ideas, cause i'm running out of them.


n regarding the senior page, i've been informed that some classes are having issues on who should design the senior page. why don't u guys design it together? its best that the pages are not being divided between groups and being design by different groups. thats just wrong people, where's the unity? anyway, as long as the pictures are appropriate (no obscene pictures), then it should be okay.


anddd, last but not least, there might be a meeting next week. just wait for the announcement. most probably on wednesday, after school. make yourselves available on that day. i really really really appreciate it if all of you, the ed boards, could make it.



yours truly,

tweet tweet!

i am getting addicted to twitter.

simply cause i can crap all i want like nobody's business there.

yeah, i do crap shit a lot these days.

i find it very therapeutic.

<3<3<3 them

maybe i'm not always there with them,

but i am always there for them.

i love you so very very much!