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Friday, October 31, 2008
kejutan
i'm writing bout surprises today as u can see the title of this entry. this year, my family has held like almost 3 birthday surprises for some of our family members. tonite, just a few hours ago, i went to mama miah's house to surprise her. its her 59th bday today, 1st november 2008. for some of u who dont know, mama miah is my grand aunt (nenek's sister). and i know her name is like the mama mia musical movie. comel je. lagi best shar panggil husband die papa miah. LOL. better than papa piah. lagi awkward. :P
first surprise was for aunty liz. we attack her house at the middle of the night while she was asleep in her baju kaftan. till today when we talked bout surprises, she always ungkit coz when we came to surprise her, she didnt wear her 'undergarments'. haha. u know what i mean.
2nd is papa, mama miah's hubbie. that was when we went to port dickson just to surprise him. he didnt have any clue on what we were doing. lucky for him at that time he was wearing a proper outfit. lol. the trip was funnnnn n we ate barbecue n all. sadly its a one nite trip. well, i cant complain much because it was a full paid trip. ngeeee.
by now i should be a pro when it comes to planning surprises. rule number one, the target MUST NOT know bout the plan. hahaha. duhhh! i suck at being the target coz i'll ALWAYS know. so jangan pandai2 nk bwat surprise utk saye k shar n fana? hahahaha. kidding2. hope today was the last surprise coz to be honest i'm getting bored sneaking n trying hard to keep my mouth shut while doing surprises. bosan dahhhh.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
bisexual you, haha!
good news: i won 3rd place in the pertandingan menganyam ketupat (single) and 1st place for pertandingan meneka kuih raya (group). now i'm so proud with myself until i feel like i can fly out the window. korang bleh ke? LOL.
bad news: i'll not be working at baskin robins tomorrow. :( my freaking parents (mostly my freaking mum) wont let me work, EVER! no wonder i'm a spoilt brat. grrrr. i'm big enough to find a decent job for myself rite? but they dont think that way. they feel like i'm too small (maybe because of my height, lol) to be working. they even asked me whether the money that they've given is not enough that makes me want to earn more on my own. watafuck? ofcoz they're not enough! hahaha. money is never enough! didnt anyone ever tell her that? but its not the money i'm going for but its the experience. priceless! plus, farhana said that whoever turn down the job at baskin for 31st is the stupid-est human ever. so now i am one thanks to my brilliant parents!
luahan hati: abah, i am nothing like jaja. me n jaja is like the sky n the earth (bagaikan langit dan bumi?) how can u compare me with her? n yes, i do feel like i'm a better childn person than her. wayyyyyy better if u ask me. n i am not n never will turn out even an inch like her. okay? just because i came home late doesnt mean that i'm turning into a kafir or anything. so chill coz girls just wanna hav fun :D
sajesaje: yesterday, a friend of mine who is 23/24 years old invited me to go swimming at his apartment. watafuck kan? ofcourse i told him (nicely) i cant go because it is too weird n soooo not appropriate for a girl to follow a guy home. gatal siot lelaki2 zaman skrg. tension.
bad news: i'll not be working at baskin robins tomorrow. :( my freaking parents (mostly my freaking mum) wont let me work, EVER! no wonder i'm a spoilt brat. grrrr. i'm big enough to find a decent job for myself rite? but they dont think that way. they feel like i'm too small (maybe because of my height, lol) to be working. they even asked me whether the money that they've given is not enough that makes me want to earn more on my own. watafuck? ofcoz they're not enough! hahaha. money is never enough! didnt anyone ever tell her that? but its not the money i'm going for but its the experience. priceless! plus, farhana said that whoever turn down the job at baskin for 31st is the stupid-est human ever. so now i am one thanks to my brilliant parents!
luahan hati: abah, i am nothing like jaja. me n jaja is like the sky n the earth (bagaikan langit dan bumi?) how can u compare me with her? n yes, i do feel like i'm a better childn person than her. wayyyyyy better if u ask me. n i am not n never will turn out even an inch like her. okay? just because i came home late doesnt mean that i'm turning into a kafir or anything. so chill coz girls just wanna hav fun :D
sajesaje: yesterday, a friend of mine who is 23/24 years old invited me to go swimming at his apartment. watafuck kan? ofcourse i told him (nicely) i cant go because it is too weird n soooo not appropriate for a girl to follow a guy home. gatal siot lelaki2 zaman skrg. tension.
i want to take this opportunity to wish my baby buchuk fana n sue sue basi ;P
good luck for tomorrow
=D
bummed
how does it feel when all the hopes n burdens is placed on your shoulders? the pressure to succeed in academics n whatever shit is all being piled up on your back n u cant even voice out your own choice to lead your own life? its just tiring n frustrating n making me feel like giving up! i dont know how many times i've said this but i never got tired of it. when i stop n take a look at my life, i felt like i'm missing a lot in life. i'd rather be a stupid bimbo bitch than being a smart brainiac who is depressed all the time. people say i should stop thinking n just live my fucking pathetic life while i still can. but honestly, i cant do that. not that i wouldnt, but i just cant. there's too many people putting their hopes on me. until sometimes i feel like its not my dream i'm pursuing, but theirs. at times i do need a little push but not a constant one that pushed me too hard till i reached the edge. sooner or later believe me, no matter how strong i am, i will fall n break to pieces. n when that happens, it will all look bad on me, not them. as perfect as i look, i'm all thorn up inside. eeeeeee! okay la, i'll stop whining about my life. cause i'm freaking super duper happy rite now. i got a call from some guy telling me that
I GOT THE JOB AT BASKIN ROBINS!
YEAY ME!
i'm so proud of myself
;P
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
it gives me plessure to know that you're under my spell
lately i feel so stress. i have this feeling like i'm becoming ugly n fat. acne's are popping up from my skin n i feel disgust to look at my own friggin face in the mirror every day. maybe its the hormones imbalance or its that time of month. whatever it is, i hope i'll pass this phase n move on to the next.
is it okay to be ugly n fat? sometimes i feel like being ugly n fat is a crime. most of the ugly people or fat people or the combo of these two get tease for their physical lack in beauty. no matter how nice or sweet or kind or intelligent they are, people always put them in the situation that can make them feel low. like they are the lower class of humans, the unwanted. people shouldn't do that. coz depressed people can turn into crazy or shall i say, mentally ill people. theres enough crazy people out there roaming this world, no need to add more. i dun want my next door neighbour turn out to be a serial killer or whatever. whatever u do, just remember that everything in this world happens like a chain reaction. things u do today will effect your own tomorrow. (so lame)
anywho. i just learn that if u like/love someone, u have to show it. give him/her signs or else he/she wouldnt know. or if u are brave, just tell that person in the face that u like him/her. how will he/she ever gonna know the real thing if u just keep it to yourself n refuse to make any move? its not her fault if he/she ended up turning to other guy/girl. and when that day comes, it'll be too little too late to be sorry.
is it okay to be ugly n fat? sometimes i feel like being ugly n fat is a crime. most of the ugly people or fat people or the combo of these two get tease for their physical lack in beauty. no matter how nice or sweet or kind or intelligent they are, people always put them in the situation that can make them feel low. like they are the lower class of humans, the unwanted. people shouldn't do that. coz depressed people can turn into crazy or shall i say, mentally ill people. theres enough crazy people out there roaming this world, no need to add more. i dun want my next door neighbour turn out to be a serial killer or whatever. whatever u do, just remember that everything in this world happens like a chain reaction. things u do today will effect your own tomorrow. (so lame)
anywho. i just learn that if u like/love someone, u have to show it. give him/her signs or else he/she wouldnt know. or if u are brave, just tell that person in the face that u like him/her. how will he/she ever gonna know the real thing if u just keep it to yourself n refuse to make any move? its not her fault if he/she ended up turning to other guy/girl. and when that day comes, it'll be too little too late to be sorry.
Monday, October 27, 2008
24.10.08
watched high school musical 3: senior year
last day of exam
job hunting
total: FUN
i look simply weird!
seventeen's cover girl n summer hunk 2009
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