*bing!*

for the first time in my life i feel miserable but actually think that its okay to feel that way because i know that it is just a phase and will pass soon.

i know now how it feels to be alone when the people that u think will always be there for u isn't there this time to stand by your side. and its okay because now i know that i am capable of doing things on my own without depending on others.

i understand now that sometimes we just need our own space and be given time to ourselves because time apparently heals any given pain. sometimes we don't realize that we actually need time on our own, and we keep on trying to pull people into our life, thinking that two is actually better than one. but when we end up being alone despite our effort to find company, then only we realize that, hey! this isn't so bad after all! its actually good for me!

being alone doesn't mean that you have to be lonely.

this might sound sad and pathetic to some of u who are reading this. i would think so too if i didn't know any better. but think about this, if you can't stand being with your own self, how do u expect others to stand being with u?

wow, it amazes me how matured and wise i am becoming now. i blame it on the wisdom tooth that's growing. :D

if i die young

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song


Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town says he'll, love my forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

fish. all of you.

i've heard enough apologies this weekend to last me a lifetime.


sorry for the dramatic intro. but i must point out that being apologized to constantly, i dare say, is as annoying as not being apologized to. do you get what i mean?


being apologized to constantly means that people have high tendency to make mistakes that will result in making your life more shitty than it already is. its like as if there's a big fat sign on your forehead that says. "hey, i'm your fucking punching bag. just do it and you can always say sorry later! :)"

screw you.


while not being apologized to is easier because when the other person messed up and didnt apologise for it, u can curse that person's mother in 10 different languages for all he cares and not feeling guilty for doing it cause deep inside both of you know that other person deserves it. we call that mutual understanding, no hard feelings, problem solved.


i truly, strongly believe that killing a person by poking every part of his body by using a fork is more evil than if u just stab a knife right into his heart.


if i can collect all the 'sorry's i've been receiving throughout my life in the form of 1 dollar bill, i'd be richer than bill gates and oprah winfrey with their bank accounts put together. wouldn't that be nice?


but money is not as satisfying as giving punishment. then what shall we do to these people who thinks they can go around and do as they like without thinking about the consequences of their action on the person who's emotion is about to be permanently affected by it?


physical punisment is always the most satisfying of all.


so, next time when your team member is being the biggest jerk on earth and not doing his job right and try to make it up to you,


or when your best friend wants to hang out with you but whenener u invited him, he makes up 1001 stupid excuses for not being able to make it and try to make up to you,


or when someone ask you to pick him up at the lrt station and you waited for his call until you fell asleep and when you wake up to see 10 misscalls on your cell phone and when you called back he says he's already on the way home with another person,


just direct all your anger to your tightly balled up fist and give them the best blow you could ever give to anyone right in the middle of their face.




and that, my dear blog readers, will just do the trick :)








p.s: my cat bit my left hand for no apparent reason and it hurts like hell. don't be shocked if the next time you see me my eyes are rolled backwards with foam on my mouth. haha.

p.p.s: i'm gonna go this short! oh yeahhhhh.

sad sad

i'm not going back this week. so its gonna be my first weekend here. away from home :'(



anyone, please come visit. take me out or bring me kfc :)





we can't go back this week cause there's gonna be an election for the student body tomorrow. technically we can go back tomorrow at 2 after the voting session ends. but since my parents are not in town, i don't think i can go back.


plus, its not worth the time. because i have to be back on sunday before 7. yeah, curfew suck balls.


chill far, 9 more months to go and then you're gonna be outta here.



till then, have a nice weekend with me people ;)

saya tidak mahu pulang

boleh tak saya mahu berhenti belajar dan kawin?




argh, stress.

you should go through pms, then we'll talk.

the person who knows you the best in this world might not be the one that you love the most.


the person you love the most might be the the one who constantly breaks your heart.


the person you care so much about might be the one who tell you the most lies.


the person who lie to you all the time might be the one you depend on the most in life.


the person you bitch about all the time might be the one who got your back through the hardest times.


the person you love might not be the one you need.


life is ironic.

i'm back in town!

hello to all of you amazing people! i miss blogging so much so i'm gonna start writing again! *hoooraaaay*

okay la, lets be honest here. the reason i'm starting to blog again is becauseeeeeeeeeee:

1) my english is getting sucky n suckier each day. especially when living at a place that doesnt allow me to communicate in english as much as i used to.

2) since i'm sitting for my MUET test soon, i'm gonna use blogging as a medium to improve my english. teehee.

3) the freaking plug in my freaking room (at KMS banting) has just been repaired. awesome possum. now i can charge my awesome new phone and use my awesome new laptop and write in my awesome blog whenever i want to. awesome huh?



oh yaaa, for those of you who still dont know, i am now officially a college student. *claps claps* currently doing my matriculation in Kolej Matrikulasi Selangor in Banting.



awesome new life, awesome new friends, awesome new environment, not so awesome new place.

IT SUCKS TO BE THE FIRST BATCH PEOPLE!!!

and it is even suckier to be living at the 4th floor of the last college dorm that is far from almost everything else. *sigh*



but i aint gonna complain cause i aint weak bebeh. okay, i have to admit i cried the first night i was there. thanks haiqal for keeping me sane and be there for me when i needed u :')



that place kinda suck to me before maybe because i'm not used to being far from home. no shower and heater, no washing machine and the most importantly, the food there was beyond disgusting.



but its all good now. the food has improved a lot! and i made lotsa new friends! and i get to eat at the boys' cafe everyday! hahahaha. the food there are cheaper and much more delicious compared to both of the girls' cafe.

in conclusion, although life is much harder now and the exhaustion is unbearable at times, i hate to say this but i love my new life. it changed me a lot as a person.



thanks to mama and abah for fetching me back and forth from subang to banting and vice versa every weekend. and yes, i do go back every weekend cause i like it that way. manja kan? lol.



i promise to write more often now and keep u guys/girls updated. my schedule is very very veryyyy tight nowadays, so i'll try my very best to do so.



got to go build a water rocket now. till then, toodles oodles noodles~!






*excuse the countless awesomes in this post. its my new favourite word ^___^