heartspill 2

i hate it when u lie
it hurts that it made me cry
i hate it when u cheat
but u make my heart skips a beat

i hate it when you're not here
as if you've disappear
i hate it when you're gone
it makes me feel alone

i hate to think about u
but there's nothing much i can do
i hate it when you're being too kind
cause i know you'll never be mine

i hate it when you're with her
although she's such a dear
n i know u hate it too
when I'm with you-know-who

despite all the hate
i know all of these are fate
shake me, break me, no matter what u do
I'll always be here, waiting for u

sesuatu yg melemahkan iman anda

exam is just around the corner. n i'm still relaxing n when i'm suppose to be studying. yeay me!








lately i've been pissy alot. the other day i had a fit for no apparent reason. i thought that time of month might be arriving soon. but i see not signs of it. perhaps i didnt realize i'm acting like this because someone made me feel like this. oh well, it doesnt matter anymore, does it?








news flash: i baked a cake last monday! damn, it taste superdelicious. technically, i didnt bake it because it doesnt need baking. its just a simple mixing here n there n pop it in the fridge to set. easy eyh? haha. to all u useless cake bakers out there, this cake will sure be your favourite to bake. try it! here are some of the pictures of my pride n joy :D

i got the recipe from here

lifeless

juz so u know, it hit me really hard right in the heart. where its already broken.

super hot n sunny day

i am such an impossible person, i know
:D





in this posting, i want to post it it malay. i guess i read too much malay blogs. n i realized that i'm actually proud to be a malay. walaupun rojak.
be prepared









semalam sy boleh katakan bahawa sy gembira. kenapa? akan sy ceritakan sebentar lagi.





selepas sekolah tamat dan solat jumaat berakhir, saya dan sharinna menemani rakan baik kami, farhana ke saloon. ini kerana farhana mahu meluruskan kembali rambutnya selain membaiki kecacatan pada rambut depannya [fringe]. sambil amoi itu bermain2 dengan rambut farhana, kami bertiga melakukan apa yang kami mampu lakukan dgn hebat [wtf?] iaitu mengumpat. haha, maksud sy di sini ialah bergossip. kami juga sempat berkenalan dengan kakak pencuci rambut berkerakyatan indonesia di situ yang begitu peramah sekali melayan kami seperti adik2nya.


sekitar pukul 5, kami berangkat ke rumah farhana semula kerana cuaca terlalu panas utk membeli belah di bazar ramadhan. kira2 pukul 630, kami ke bazar bersama adik beradik farhana yg lain. agak ramai juga pengunjung yg masih membeli juadah berbuka ketika kami tiba. lalu kami bertiga berjalan berpegangan tangan meredah lautan manusia2 yg rambang mata melihat terlalu banyak makanan yg boleh dibeli. ketika kami berjalan beriringan, tiba2 kami terjumpa tujuan kami ke bazar ramadhan itu. kelihatan dari jauh syafie sedang mempromosikan gerainya.

sharinna: "far far! tu syafie kan far! jom jom!"
farah: "ohmygoddd, xyah la ckp kuat2. nnt kte pusing satu round then kite singgah la" [dgn nada bengang bercampur malu. ]

maka kami pun berpusing di hujung. tiba2 kedengaran..

"chumi goreng! chumi baju merah goreng! mari mari!"

rupa2nya seorang abg sengaja mencari psl dgn mengejek sy yg ketika itu sedang memakai baju t berwarna merah dgn tulisan CHUMI di hadapannya. alangkah malunya sy ketika itu. tapi sy sempat memberikan senyuman kepada abg itu. dlm hati sy berkata 'tak lawak pun la abg'


kami terukan berjalan. dan ketika sedang mencari2 gerai syafie...

sharinna: "far! tu zharif kan?"
farah: "zharif? zharif mane? mane mane?" [sambil mencari2]
sharinna: "tuuulaaaaaaa" [sambil menundingkan jari ke arah sebuah gerai] "zharif bestfriend
awk la, zharif mane lg"
farah: "owhhhhh"


lalu kami pun singgah di gerai yg menjual kebab itu. tetapi malangnya apabila sy menegur zharif, dia seperti tidak suka akan kehadiran sy di situ. dia sekadar membalas menggunakan isyarat seperti bercakap dengan org bisu ketika sy bertanya kepada dia. mungkin dia tidak merindui sy atau mungkin dia tidak mahu sy melihatnya bekerja di gerai. haih. namun, sy tetap membeli sepotong kebab di gerai itu sebagai tanda sokongan sy kepada zharif yg tidak berbelah bagi.



setelah selesai, kami pun menuju ke gerai syafie yg terletak bertentangan dengan gerai zharif tadi. dr jauh kelihatan die sudah tersenyum menanti kehadiran kami bertiga.

farah: "heyyyyyy! jual ape ni?" [bodoh tak soalan sy?]
syafie: "bubur. macam2 bubur ada. beli la, nnt i kasi diskaun" [sambil tersenyum lagi dan memperkenalkan bubur2nya]
farah: "hahaha"
sharinna: "yelaaaa, kan die suke kat farah"
farah: "ape benda sial awk ni. megarut je"
farah: "owhhhh, ape yg special/sedap kat sini?"
syafie: "taktau lah. semua special!"
farah: "yeke? hurmmm, taktau la nk bli yg mane. shar, awk pilih la, kte bayar"
sharinna: "okay. kte suke bubur chacha ni."
farah: "sedap ke? okay lah, amik dua. brape sume skali?"
syafie: "RM3.00."
farah: "owh, harga biase brape?"
syafie: "RM2.50. tapi xpelah, harga kawan2." [sambil membungkus, dia mencapai sebekas bubur gandum dan memasukkannya ke dalam plastik]
farah: "ehh, ape ni?"
syafie: "bagi free. alaaa, skali skale."
farah: "hahaha. thanx!"
sharinna: "haha, bestnyeee. tiap2 hari kte beli kat sni la. bleh dpt bubur free!"
farah: "okaylah. thanx. byeeee."
sharinna n farhana: "byeeee!"


setelah itu kami pun beredar. farhana pulang megikut abangnya. manakala sy dan sharinna megikut ayah sy.


tamatlah cerita. setelah sy membuat kesimpulan, sy masih tidak megerti mengapa sy gembira semalam. mungkin sebab sy berbangga melihat rakan2 sy bersemangat berniaga di bulan ramadhan yg mulia ini. bg sy, its cool :)



p/s: syafie hanyalah rakan sekelas sy yg baru masuk ke sekolah kami. kami hanya rakan, tidak lebih. sharinna hanyalah cemburu sebab itu dia berkata begitu. sedangkan dia yg suka syafie :DDDD

OhSoTouching

Baby here I am

Banging on your front door

My pride spilled on the floor

My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you

Begging for a second chance

Are you gonna let me in?

I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying

Touch these hands that can't stop shaking

Hear my heart that's barely beating

You will see a different girl

what floats your oats?

sitting here blogging in front of the PC
listening to boy band songs
backstreet boys, n'sync-my latest downloads
these are the songs that brings back so many memories
pleasant memories of my childhood days, fun days, problemless days
when britney spears n spice girls n n'sync n backstreet boys n westlife rock the universe
but not anymore, now they're categorised in the gay song department
haha, its okay to listen to them once in awhile
especially at times like this
when your brain system can't digest latest n modern jams
metal, rock, techno, ska, dangdut [hahaha, too shittay]
so, as a resolution, listen to whatever that able to soothes your brain n your soul
hell with what people gonna say, we all have our own comfort songs
its works like comfort food [chocs, ice creams]
the kind that u eat limitlessly in your room or in front of the TV to calm yourself after breaking up with your gf/bf
instead, these are songs, not food.
something that u don't have to consume and doest have to go through your digestive system
something that doesn't add to your weight and doesn't make u feel guilty taking it
the best way for u girls out there to release all your anger, frustration n depression
SING YOUR SONG OUT LOUD
scream if u have to, show your falsetto, let the world listen to your song
but boys n girls, please consider the consequences before u try this method
there are great possibilities that u may get tomato thrown at your face
beware.or just go for the eat-till-u-cant-fit-through-the-door method
huh, i am so crapping shit rite now
my advise to u. yeah, that's rite. YOU:

1. don't go around and break people's heart
2. do listen to gay songs always

toodles people, i love youuu :)

ramadhan

happy fasting people!

i would like to take this opportunity to wish all the Muslims Happy Ramadhan!

22 days to go till raya!!!

the late update is due to my laziness n my business

so here's the details of my first day of fasting :)

first day of fasting was as usual very excruciating

its not easy to get use to not eating

the day felt so long and the time seems to past by too slow, much slower than usual

ohhh, even a piece of plain bread looked delicious

luckily for me, food doesn't bother me much today

i even watch a few cooking shows today, no big deal for me

for breaking fast or berbuka for the first day of fasting, i made WANTANS

some ppl called in wonton or wanton

wantan is basicly a bag-like shape dumplings with meat filling

yeah, its like dumplings but has its own identity

this is originally a Chinese delicacy, i learned this recipe from my chinese aunt

i hav a few chinese aunts n chinese blood does run through my veins

i'm proud to be a melayu celup! :D

how to make wantan

the meat filling

wantan skin

wantan skin with meat filling

fold it like that

the press it together around the wantan so that it look like a pouch/money bag

fried 'em

end product

jeng jeng jeng! foot licking good :)