call it whatever you want :)

this is peepeefeet!

2011-04-24T20:13:00.000-07:00

i know its an extremely weird name to name a cat. but i am weird like that :)

this little devil is just a stray cat who likes to pretend like she lives in our house. she's super smart and have a talent in persuading people to share food with her. well, she's been away for a very long time so i assume someone must have taken her to live with them cause she's super friendly and tak malu. but to my surprise she came back last two nights. i don't think she's a normal cat, maybe she's a devil or something.

the end of a beginning

2011-03-27T21:23:00.000-07:00

guess who's finishing matrics? heh heh.

how time flies when you're having fun.

FUN?! yeah. right.

matrics is no fun brothers and sisters. but we gotta do what we gotta do, kan? after almost one year living in this hellish place, it's finally coming to an end. yeayyy!

butttttt, that also means that our finals is nearing, fastttt. do pray for me people because if you do then i promise i'll write in this blog more often when i finished this matrics programme. (i know i said that the last time but i really haven't got the time. hehe)

i must say although i really hate to be here and am dying to finish and go back to the comfort of my home, i would really miss my friends that i met here. they are super-dee-duper awesome! note that nothing is more awesome-r than super-dee-duper awesome.

especially my classmates, because some of them stay as far as terengganu. and all my lecturers, our mentor, akak koperasi (?). ewww, okay that's gross.

i'll definitely miss my dorm neighbours who are all so funny and friendly. my roommates whom i've already consider them as sisters now :') i would miss habsah the most though cause she's staying far away in KL and most because both of us wanted the same things in life, well, most of it anyways. finally i've met someone who is also passionate about being a psychologist as i have always been. as for mahirah, she is practically my neighbour in subang so yeah, i'm gonna see her often even after matrics.

ohh this is so emotional so i'm gonna stop right here. might be posting pictures soon so do wait for it ;)

i end this post with a goodbye and an offer. i really do not know what i'm going to do after matrics. so if you need a maid do call me okay?

LOL okay that was a joke. really, it is. my mum have already booked me for that job. ho ho ho so excited cant wait -.-

till then, have a nice day blogworms! ^__^

bing!

2011-02-03T21:26:00.000-08:00

for the first time in my life i feel miserable but actually think that its okay to feel that way because i know that it is just a phase and will pass soon.

i know now how it feels to be alone when the people that u think will always be there for u isn't there this time to stand by your side. and its okay because now i know that i am capable of doing things on my own without depending on others.

i understand now that sometimes we just need our own space and be given time to ourselves because time apparently heals any given pain. sometimes we don't realize that we actually need time on our own, and we keep on trying to pull people into our life, thinking that two is actually better than one. but when we end up being alone despite our effort to find company, then only we realize that, hey! this isn't so bad after all! its actually good for me!

being alone doesn't mean that you have to be lonely.

this might sound sad and pathetic to some of u who are reading this. i would think so too if i didn't know any better. but think about this, if you can't stand being with your own self, how do u expect others to stand being with u?

wow, it amazes me how matured and wise i am becoming now. i blame it on the wisdom tooth that's growing. :D

if i die young

2011-01-17T19:14:00.000-08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song


Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother 
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well 
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin 
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well 
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom 
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town says he'll, love my forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls 
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar 
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin 
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well 
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls 

fish. all of you.

2010-12-25T09:10:00.000-08:00

i've heard enough apologies this weekend to last me a lifetime.

sorry for the dramatic intro. but i must point out that being apologized to constantly, i dare say, is as annoying as not being apologized to. do you get what i mean?

being apologized to constantly means that people have high tendency to make mistakes that will result in making your life more shitty than it already is. its like as if there's a big fat sign on your forehead that says. "hey, i'm your fucking punching bag. just do it and you can always say sorry later! :)"

screw you.

while not being apologized to is easier because when the other person messed up and didnt apologise for it, u can curse that person's mother in 10 different languages for all he cares and not feeling guilty for doing it cause deep inside both of you know that other person deserves it. we call that mutual understanding, no hard feelings, problem solved.

i truly, strongly believe that killing a person by poking every part of his body by using a fork is more evil than if u just stab a knife right into his heart.

if i can collect all the 'sorry's i've been receiving throughout my life in the form of 1 dollar bill, i'd be richer than bill gates and oprah winfrey with their bank accounts put together. wouldn't that be nice?

but money is not as satisfying as giving punishment. then what shall we do to these people who thinks they can go around and do as they like without thinking about the consequences of their action on the person who's emotion is about to be permanently affected by it?

physical punisment is always the most satisfying of all.

so, next time when your team member is being the biggest jerk on earth and not doing his job right and try to make it up to you,

or when your best friend wants to hang out with you but whenener u invited him, he makes up 1001 stupid excuses for not being able to make it and try to make up to you,

or when someone ask you to pick him up at the lrt station and you waited for his call until you fell asleep and when you wake up to see 10 misscalls on your cell phone and when you called back he says he's already on the way home with another person,

just direct all your anger to your tightly balled up fist and give them the best blow you could ever give to anyone right in the middle of their face.

and that, my dear blog readers, will just do the trick :)

p.s: my cat bit my left hand for no apparent reason and it hurts like hell. don't be shocked if the next time you see me my eyes are rolled backwards with foam on my mouth. haha.

p.p.s: i'm gonna go this short! oh yeahhhhh.

sad sad

2010-06-11T03:23:00.000-07:00

i'm not going back this week. so its gonna be my first weekend here. away from home :'(

anyone, please come visit. take me out or bring me kfc :)

we can't go back this week cause there's gonna be an election for the student body tomorrow. technically we can go back tomorrow at 2 after the voting session ends. but since my parents are not in town, i don't think i can go back.

plus, its not worth the time. because i have to be back on sunday before 7. yeah, curfew suck balls.

chill far, 9 more months to go and then you're gonna be outta here.

till then, have a nice weekend with me people ;)

saya tidak mahu pulang

2010-06-05T22:53:00.000-07:00

boleh tak saya mahu berhenti belajar dan kawin?

argh, stress.

you should go through pms, then we'll talk.

2010-06-05T20:23:00.000-07:00

the person who knows you the best in this world might not be the one that you love the most.

the person you love the most might be the the one who constantly breaks your heart.

the person you care so much about might be the one who tell you the most lies.

the person who lie to you all the time might be the one you depend on the most in life.

the person you bitch about all the time might be the one who got your back through the hardest times.

the person you love might not be the one you need.

life is ironic.

i'm back in town!

2010-03-06T22:16:00.000-08:00

hello to all of you amazing people! i miss blogging so much so i'm gonna start writing again! *hoooraaaay*

okay la, lets be honest here. the reason i'm starting to blog again is becauseeeeeeeeeee:

1) my english is getting sucky n suckier each day. especially when living at a place that doesnt allow me to communicate in english as much as i used to.

2) since i'm sitting for my MUET test soon, i'm gonna use blogging as a medium to improve my english. teehee.

3) the freaking plug in my freaking room (at KMS banting) has just been repaired. awesome possum. now i can charge my awesome new phone and use my awesome new laptop and write in my awesome blog whenever i want to. awesome huh?

oh yaaa, for those of you who still dont know, i am now officially a college student. *claps claps* currently doing my matriculation in Kolej Matrikulasi Selangor in Banting.

awesome new life, awesome new friends, awesome new environment, not so awesome new place.

IT SUCKS TO BE THE FIRST BATCH PEOPLE!!!

and it is even suckier to be living at the 4th floor of the last college dorm that is far from almost everything else. *sigh*

but i aint gonna complain cause i aint weak bebeh. okay, i have to admit i cried the first night i was there. thanks haiqal for keeping me sane and be there for me when i needed u :')

that place kinda suck to me before maybe because i'm not used to being far from home. no shower and heater, no washing machine and the most importantly, the food there was beyond disgusting.

but its all good now. the food has improved a lot! and i made lotsa new friends! and i get to eat at the boys' cafe everyday! hahahaha. the food there are cheaper and much more delicious compared to both of the girls' cafe.

in conclusion, although life is much harder now and the exhaustion is unbearable at times, i hate to say this but i love my new life. it changed me a lot as a person.

thanks to mama and abah for fetching me back and forth from subang to banting and vice versa every weekend. and yes, i do go back every weekend cause i like it that way. manja kan? lol.

i promise to write more often now and keep u guys/girls updated. my schedule is very very veryyyy tight nowadays, so i'll try my very best to do so.

got to go build a water rocket now. till then, toodles oodles noodles~!

*excuse the countless awesomes in this post. its my new favourite word ^___^

strawberries and honey combs.

2010-01-17T08:51:00.000-08:00

18

2010-01-13T19:38:00.000-08:00

when you're 18, everything suppose to make sense. HALF TRUE.

I HAD THE GREATEST BIRTHDAY EVER !

a big thank you to all my friends who did a great job at organizing my surprise party. it was great and i can't ask for anything better. they're such good liars! i admit, i was fooled. i felt like being punk'd on MTV except that there was no ashton kutcher. well, i'll get my revenge soon >:)

i dedicate this post specially to:

sharinna n nabilah

fana

isaac, iris n stella

haiqal

and......

abu, tasha, adam, kamarul, husna, effy, ab, nadiah, ian, rahul, sherwin, jacob and zharif.

thank you gazillion much! :D

the best day

2009-12-17T08:34:00.000-08:00

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on

I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run

Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold

I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall

But I know you're not scared of anything at all

Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away

But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean

I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys

And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away

And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school

But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you

Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay

But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger

God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run

And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three

You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me

It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs

And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall

I know you were on my side even when I was wrong

And I love you for giving me your eyes

For staying back and watching me shine

And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say

That I had the best day with you today

my silly teacher

2009-12-15T06:41:00.000-08:00

my class teacher, Puan Noradzlinda IM-ed me on facebook just to say this:

"sorry ganggu.. cikgu nak mintak tolong sikit.. husband cikgu
tak cukup neighbor, boleh add farah jadi friends dia?"

"kesian kat dia.. nak upgrade farm tapi tak cukup neighbor."

-.-"

my class teacher is so cool.

camerakurakuramarama

2009-12-12T10:23:00.000-08:00

i want to buy a new digital camera. anyone wants to suggest anything?

it must be:

NOT SO EXPENSIVE RM400-600

NOT SO BULKY

NOT SO LOUSY

NOT SO GAY?

i'm desperado but i'm too lazy to google. teehee.

limit

2009-12-12T10:06:00.000-08:00

every person in this world has their own limit point.

it shows how much pain one can endure, how tough they are, how patient they are, how strong they are at keeping up with the nonsense that other people create for them.

but what happens when a person have reached his/her limit point and realize that they couldn't take it anymore?

they break.

as for me, every time i felt like breaking, i kept telling myself,

"I'm flexible, i'm stretchable. i'm like a rubber, and rubbers don't break."

yeah, they don't. but hearts do.

what would you do if...

2009-12-04T10:26:00.001-08:00

two of your friends fight and you know one of them is at fault while the other one is suffering because of it?

heh. no comment.

i'm like a dwarf and you're like?

2009-12-03T06:17:00.000-08:00

so, intan, sera and i went to strawberry fields for dinner today. well, early dinner at least since it was only 6.30 then. we were having so much fun chitchatting UNTIL....

jeng jeng jeng!

a kid came out of nowhere and ask for donation. he said he was from an orphanage and he's collecting donation by selling this 'minyak urut' wtf.

first thing about him that pisses me off is the fact that he asked for a specific amount of money. say, 10 bucks. aren't donation suppose to be like 'suka-hati-kita-lah-nak-bagi-berapa-ringgit'? any amount will do as long as its sincere, right?

second, was his shitty attitude that made me feel like slapping him on the lips (sepak bibir, inside joke) the conversation between us sounded something like this:

kid: assalamualaikum. kak, saya dari rumah anak2 yatim nak mintak derma...blabla...minyak ni 10 ringgit...blablabla.

intan: sorry la dik, kitorang takde duit kecik.

kid: kak, ni untuk rumah anak2 yatim kak.

intan: tapi kitorang tengah tunggu mak kitorang datang. and kitorang pun bawak duit cukup2 nak makan. (seriously)

kid: kak, tolong la ni untuk rumah anak2 yatim.

intan: mintak maaf banyak2. kitorang memang takde duit kecik.

kid: akak tukar la duit. (WHATAFUCKKK)

*we were so pissed by now*

intan: far, awak la cakap dengan dia.

me: dik, kitorang memang takde duit kecik. ape kata adik pergi mintak dengan orang lain. *i made a face*

hahaha. i'm so evil, i know. but somebody gotta teach that kid some manners. he's so pushy and rude. at last, i gave up and gave him 1 buck to make him leave. after that, he left, walked right past intan and intan heard him said something like, "ada duit tapi taknak bagi"

again. WHATAFUCKKKK?!

suka hati bapak aku la nak bagi berapa pun. anak yatim ke, anak ape ke, kisah ape aku. kalau perangai macam tu, tak guna mintak sedekah. pegi jual cd porn je lagi baik dari buat dosa sakitkan hati orang.

i'm actually very cool when it comes to people asking for donation. i'd give everytime anyone ask, except for when i don't bring enough money or when that person asking for it looks like someone who would enjoy the money by buying drugs afterwards or something.

but this kid was really pathetic and ..... what's 'tak sedar diri' in english? hah, that!

okay, i'm letting it go know. fuhhhh~

fana's birthday!

2009-10-23T04:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANAAAAAAAAA!

22.10.2009

not everyday your bestfriend turns seventeen. fana has *finally* joined the sexy seventeen club yesterday. so we went to a restaurant in bangsar to celebrate. the place was awesome, so was the people who came. but the shisha kinda sucked. it was like sandpaper against my throat. okay, i'm being overdramatic. tapi i terer boleh keluarkan asap dari hidung. sikit ;)

**birthday girl**

okay, next on the list is my birthday. i nak buat birthday party dekat mcd. tak main la party dekat club. lol.

team who?

2009-10-16T06:02:00.000-07:00

HOT

SIZZLING HOT

oh my,

i'm definitely on team jacob.

so long, edward cullen.

credits to eonline.com

to my pretty boy,

2009-10-15T12:03:00.000-07:00

Corey's eyes are like a jungle

He smiles, it's like the radio

He whispers songs into my window

In words that nobody knows

There's pretty girls on every corner

That watch him as he's walking home

Saying, does he know

Will you ever know?

You're beautiful, every little piece, love

Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone

Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for

I hope your life leads you back to my door

Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful

Corey finds another way to be

The highlight of my day

I'm taking pictures with my mind

So I can save 'em for a rainy day

It's hard to make a conversation

When he's taking my breath away

I should say

'Hey, by the way'

You're beautiful, every little piece, love

Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone

Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for

I hope your life leads you back to my door

Oh, but if it don't, stay beautiful

If you and I are a story

That never gets told

If what you are is a daydream

I'll never get to hold

At least you'll know

You're beautiful, every little piece, love

Don't you know, you're really gonna be someone

Ask anyone

And when you find everything you looked for

I hope your life leads you back to my front door

Oh, but if it don't

Will you stay beautiful?

taylor swift - stay beautiful

best advice ever

2009-10-09T10:29:00.000-07:00

met a distant aunt of mine at my uncle's funeral on thursday.

aunt: how old are you? buat apa sekarang?

me: seventeen. SPM tahun ni.

aunt: ohh, dah besar daaahhhhh. lama betul tak jumpa.

me: ... *smiles*

aunt: cepat eh diorang ni besar sekarang.

mum: haha, tulaa.

aunt: takpela, as long as diorang tak mintak kawin cepat sudah.

me: ??

aunt: aunty dulu kawin umur 18. believe me, i know. don't repeat my mistake.

me: heheh. *speechless*

DAMN, that is exactly what i planned on doing!

cheers!

the pretty old haunted castle

2009-10-09T08:47:00.000-07:00

I've delayed this post for too long now. hehe. now i have a purpose to blog again :)

these are the pictures i managed to take during my visit to Carey Island a few months back. i don't remember when that was though, but i do remember that it was an awesome trip! well, not exactly a trip, my mum went for some course thingamajig there. so, my father brought us along to pick her up after she finished.

while we were there, my mum suggested that we visit a few interesting places there. one of them is the Hatter's Castle. "how come there's a castle in the middle of the palm oil plantation?!" i thought. but it turns out to be that the castle belongs to the founder of the island. i don't know how true is that because wiki clearly stated that some guy named Valentine Carey found the island. who cares.

anyways, the castle didn't look like the typical stereotype castle. it was more like an old-fashioned bungalow house with a huge ass yard and a creepy atmosphere. but its was so beautiful i almost cried :') now, let the pictures do the talking, shall we?

huge ass garden view taken from the upstairs balcony.

spot the owl.

creepy tree and the garage.

cute eh? :D

creepy tree no. 2. there's three of them all together.

wardrobe, a walk in type. one of them even have a secret passage to allow the owner to escape in case there's an emergency. useful during the Japanese occupation.

the driveway taken from the living room.

before we ended the castle tour, we asked the caretaker whether there have been any 'funny' things happened before at the castle. at first he refused to tell us but the he gave up. he said, there's this one time when he was doing his routine rounding to check whether all the switches have been switched off. he walked into the living room absent-mindedly and said "assalamualaikum" out of habit, and suddenly, somebody answered "waalaikumussalam" out of nowhere.

when we asked what kind of ghost he normally encounters, he said a ghost dressed in colonial era outfit have been seen around the castle, with a rifle in his hand.

how can a Caucasian ghost greets "waalaikumussalam"?

that's the mystery.

i can't smile without youuu.

2009-10-03T08:13:00.000-07:00

god bless this ugly child.

i saja nak upload gambar kat sini eventhough dah upload kat facebook :D

this is, as u all have guessed, my baju raya for this year. i was suppose to buy one in blue *winkwink*, but it was hard to find one that can fit perfectly on me. as my body is "unproportional" in a way. lol. so i just bought this one because the kakak indon said the bright colour compliments my fair skin. awww. that kakak indon also gave a a crash course on how to wear the kain pario that came along with this outfit. fuh, it wasn't easy i must say. imagine the risk of having to face with public humiliation when the kain pario can fall at any time. okay why am i crapping and telling u all this? jeez.

and so i got bored with blogging. wanna know why? because now i play farmville at facebook! wanna be my neighbor? hahaha.

i can't believe i'm turning eighteen 3 months from now! ohmygosh! i'm getting old :(

when i was younger, i used to say, "ohhh, lambat nye nak besar. tak sabar nak habis skola and pergi club and drive and boleh pergi mengundi... -.-" ni especially masa form 2 la. but now when i'm getting close to be able to do all that, i realise that i don't want to grow up just to be able to do all that. i am willing to give up all of that so-called freedom just so that i can stay this way, young and innocent, as long as i can.

but i do wanna grow tall no matter what :)

now at this age i always say things like, "grrr, gila lambat nak besar. tak sabar nak kawin" or "bila la nak besar and jadi kaya gila and tinggal kat UK." but i know that when the time comes, i will not want the same things as i want now. i just want to stay the way i am now and not grow and pray for the time to stop.

can you imagine yourself being old? i know i cant. i hope even when i'm older, my mind will stay the same, only wiser. i wanna be as fun, (hahaha, me? fun? i know) open-minded and cool as i am now. cehh, in other words, i dont wanna turn out like my mum. KIDDING! although my mum makes the funniest old-people-lame-jokes. i once told her this, "mother, now i know where i got my lame genes from -.-"

haha, i call her 'mother' when i'm annoyed with her. just like when she calls me 'farah' when she's angry at me. my grandaunt calls me 'farah deeba' when she doesnt get any response from me after calling me by my real name. my uncles on the other hand, call me 'farah debab' because they think its funny. how sad.

okay enough crapping. i'll shut now, thank you.

hiding from the spotlight

2009-09-09T22:26:00.000-07:00

today is one of the day that made me realize how clumsy/reckless/stupid i am. i missed the section C chemistry paper 1. i swear i've checked and i thought i've done it. oh well, at least i managed to answer half of it during the last few minutes.

its nice to know there are people who love you as much as you love them.

i have a big plan for next month *winkwink*

FABULOUS FINDS:

leopard print crocs.

diha has a pair in brown :)

owl necklace.

the one i saw at sunway was purple in colour with a splash of turquoise and pink. see it here

F21

F21
F21

dorothy perkins

F21

dorothy perkins

dorothy perkins

dorothy perkins

why i need barbiturate

2009-08-26T20:40:00.000-07:00

semalam i mimpi i pergi supermarket nak cari mars bar, tapi i tak jumpa yang single packet punya. i pusing satu kedai and all i found was yg mini packs n yang 4 in 1 packs. sedih kan?

and then i mimpi lord voldemort tengah hunt i. konon2 macam i ni harry potter female version. i naik kereta malam2, pastu dia panjat bumbung kereta i lompat2. pastu tiba2 ada part pasal hari sukan sekolah pulak. what the?

i have trouble sleeping lately. last night, everytime mata i lelap, its like ada orang inject adrenalin dalam badan i. i pun guling like crazy sambil moaning and grumbling, sampai i decide nk tidur duduk sebab tension sangat.

a few nights before, i went to bed dengan hati yg duka lara. hahaha. then i bangun pukul 3 pagi, moaning non stop for a moment and then sambung tidur blk. malam kelmarin adik i ckp i moaning dalam tidur, almost like mengigau. kali ni i did it unconciously. apa yang sedih sangat?? i pun taktau.

i've come to a conclusion. i rasa i kena sampuk. hahaha. tapi bulan puasa ni takda *wooooooooo*. u get what i mean, kan?

so i found a website that can translate the meaning of dreams and this is the interpretation of my dream:

Searching

Psychological Meaning: What are you trying to find? Your dream search may symbolise the quest to find something physical, emotional, intellectual or spiritual. You may be searching for a new way to solve an old problem. If you dream of searching for someone you know, you may be anxious about your relationship with that person and want to end the emotional separation. Are you sure that this search is worthwhile or is the dream reflecting your feeling of hopelessness?

Mystical Meaning: Perhaps your dream is a spiritual search. Myths such as the King Arthur’s knights’ quest for the Holy Grail may be describing the inner process of spiritual transformation.

i think my dream ada mystical meaning :D

chumi and the froggies

2009-08-25T07:35:00.000-07:00

(macam nama band siot)

i want to blog about something but i dont know what i should blog about :)

so, i'll just blog about random things.

yesterday i went to a golf club for buka puasa. as usual, buka puasa ofcourse buffet style punya. and mind you, i HATE buffet. first; cause i'm a light eater, its such a waste. so don't ajak me pergi buffet at hotels and save your money, haha. second; cause i hate watching people pile up food on their plate with their tamak face. like they've not eaten for weeks.

after buka puasa, we all headed back to mama miah's house. we celebrated yana's birthday! blow candles, watched miss universe, and makan duku langsat sambil duduk bersila depan teevee -.- hahaha. we are so kampung but thats just how we roll, bebeh. but my family is so cool. my cousin brought her bf with her, and to my amazement, my family tak macam judgemental or anything. so i told my mum, "nanti if awa ade bf awa nak bawak pegi family events jugak la."

i said IF. and she said okay.

i disected a frog at bio tuition just now. in fact, i disected a few of them. i'm so proud of myself! i like them better when they are dead. but they're really2 smelly! dead or alive. i still cant get the fishy smell, or should i say the froggy smell, out of my head. jeeez, its torturing!

someone brought something like this one, freakishly big! n it's heart keep on beating even after it's been cut off from the body.

my holiday is not that great. maybe its because of the fasting month. cant go to kopitiam to lepak, too hungry do do anything. so i just stayed at home, paint my room. only go out of the house for tuitions and bazaar ramadhan. yes, i'm so devoted to my studies i haven't miss any tuitions yet. heh heh. *kening kening* (as amer arif would put it, inside joke)

so tomorrow's the fifth day peeps. i'm going out for berbuka *sigh* maybe i need to socialize more, hehe. have a great fasting people!

me and the paint brush

2009-08-23T00:34:00.000-07:00

song of the mo' :

honest mistake - the bravery

my guitar rock jam :)

tengah cat my bedroom. nanti i post pictures if ada masa.

cuba teka colour ape! ^^

puasa kali ni tak macam puasa dulu2. now if pegi bazaar, i akan beli maximum 2 items je. bukan 10 macam last year.

maybe coz wisdom tooth i baru tumbuh. so i'm wiser now. hahaha.

selamat berpuasa, blogworms!

i am so angry my head can explode.

2009-08-20T01:34:00.000-07:00

"i hate almost everything about you. and yet i am still here, attached to you like glue."

10 things about me that i feel like sharing:

1. my current credit balance is RM17.60($.$)

2. someone have a problem with my stubbornness.

3. i don't get to watch g.i. joe because i wasn't invited.

4. my addmaths paper2 was freakishly hard like mad.

5. i just got a new (lame) phone 2 days ago.

6. i got RM52 in my tabung.

7. i feel like grabbing everything i see and stuff them in the washing machine. *cleaning mode*

8. i will not be going for the 10 hour biology seminar thingy.

9. i can't wait to buy my red kebaya.

10. someone needs to tell my bestfriend that he needs to stop smoking.

the forgotten.

2009-08-15T20:50:00.000-07:00

i just had another dream of him last night.

we, the family, talked bout him during dinner yesterday. i told them how he's been appearing in my dreams like he's still alive and not yet dead. and they told me it happens because i've not been praying for him. and he thinks i've forgotten about him or something.

to tell ya the truth, i always remember him. how could i forget? up to this moment, i still couldn't believe that he's gone for good. in all my dreams that i had that has him in it, he's not really gone. although we know that he's no longer alive, but we also know that he always come home to visit us.

how can a dead person come and visit?

maybe in reality, they do. spiritualy i mean. but we couldn't see them. if we couldn't see something, doesn't mean its not there, rite?

when i told my mum this morning about the dream that i had, she told me that i should pray for him more. she said that when he was alive he had loved me unconditionally. so i should show mine by praying for him when he needs my prayers the most, which is now.

him.

sometimes we choose not to remember something or someone because we know how much pain we will have to deal with if we choose otherwise.

not interested

2009-08-14T10:47:00.000-07:00

song of the mo' :

search and destroy - iggy pop and the stooges

so, today's bio paper was okay. i'd rate it 5/10. mainly 'cause the first 2 questions was from the few chapters that i really focused on revising the night before. usually, i leave my bio paper2 almost 3/4 blank, this time only 1/4 of it was left blank. LOL. never in my life i studied bio like i did for this exam. *pat on the head*

in other news, i heard that somebody 'talked' about me behind my back to my best friend. i don't really care if people wanna talk and complaint about me, but constantly doing that to all my closest friends? gosh, is that pathetic or what?

at first, i'm totally cool with this person talking about me to my friends. i thought, hey, maybe he needs someone to talk to and something to talk about. everybody does. but something happened recently that made the relationship between us tensed a bit. but i don't think i was my fault things ended up the way it did 'cause honestly, i was just being nice and trying hard not to hurt his feelings.

but he doesn't realize this. so next time i'm just gonna say things straight the way i feel bout it and stop trying to compose it in pleasant words just so that they won't hurt his feelings. there's no point doing that when he doesn't care bout what i think and what i want. i am what i am, and i want what i want! haha, sound like a big bossy bitch, eh?

my main point is, i don't appreciate people telling me what i should do and how i should treat my friends or how i should behave. if u feel that i'm not treating you good enough or the way that u think u deserve, then that is not my problem. u should really go check yourself, maybe there's something wrong with YOU, not me.

and i really think that friends shouldn't date one another. end of story.

chaos

2009-08-13T00:58:00.000-07:00

song of the mo' :

i wanna love you forever - Jessica Simpson

i'm now in the middle of reading Jodi Picoult's vanishing acts. apart from that, i tried reading Stephenie Meyer's the host. but i gotta say, its not her best piece so far. its too early to tell really cause i haven't finish reading yet. exams! pfftt.

my book-shopping list:

1. harry potter and the chamber of secrets

2. harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban

3. harry potter and the goblet of fire

4. harry potter and the half blood prince

5. harry potter and the deathly hallows

6. the tales of beedle the bart

7. the magician's nephew

8. the lion, the witch and the wardrobe

9. the horse and his boy

10. prince caspian

11. the voyage of the dawn treader

12. the silver chair

13. the last battle

and all Jodi Picoult's and Cecelia Ahern's books. after i'm finished with all these, i'm gonna start reading lord of the rings. oh god, i hope it doesnt bore me to death. i'm so not into hobbits and creepy old man with excessive facial hair. i'm more like a vampire-werewolf person (cehhh), but i'll try.

if u're asking about my future plans, this is all i got. really.

screw the future people!

love ya'll.

she's a genius

2009-08-11T10:26:00.000-07:00

thats the title of my current favourite song.

she's a genius - JET

i dedicate this song to all the ladies out there who doesnt feel afraid to be weird and different from others. we're the ones who makes the world go round.

oh betapa tandusnya blog entri ku!

straight to the point, without making any stupid excuses.

i admit that i'm supercalifragilisticespialadociously lazy to post on my blog. in fact, i'm lazy to do almost everything. like waking up in the morning and force myself to shower. or eat dinner. or replying text messages. or answering my goddamn phone. or going out to the mall. or flush the toilet after i'm done with my business. haha, i'm lazy like thatttt. although the last one is obviously not true.

the only thing that i cant afford to be lazy is when it comes to study. now is the panic season, i bet all the candidates for SPM 2009 are feeling the exam heat and have started putting on their nerd glasses and thinking caps. and for some, started to boil the biology and history books and notes and drink the essence in hopes to ace the respective subjects in the trial exam.

as for me, i'm pretending to be busy, reading books and stuff to make the people around me feel the pressure even more. haahaa.

i just had one of the most unacceptable/ridiculous/childish/annoying conversations of my life a few hours ago with a person that i believed could have save me from facing the worst nightmare of my life. to bad that person crushed my hopes :( thank you so much, that person.

i wish i can fly away far from here and only come back when i feel ready. can i skip the phase of my life where i need to have affairs with books instead of men? can i have a life where all i need to do to keep on living besides eating is reading story books? or better yet, living the life of a fictional character of my choice?

life ain't that sweet, honey.

to end this entry, i would like to promote my school's prom nite that will be held at THE ROYALE BINTANG (near the curve) on 19th of december 2009.

the tickets available are:

RM98 per person

RM193 per couple

RM950 per table (10 people).

don't u dare tell me the price is expensive. u do want it to be the best prom nite ever, rite? :)

payments can be made to me or through other prom committee members. and no, partner of the same gender is not considered as a couple. thank you very much.

harry who?

2009-07-18T20:34:00.000-07:00

harry potter has lost its magic. it's becoming more and more boring each time. i watched it with diha, saiful, amer and ikhwa yesterday at sunway (where else!). it was the longest 3 hours of my life. i've never before watched a movie that made me so restless until i felt the strong urge to walk out of the cinema halfway through the movie. harry potter and the half blood prince was the first.

that is how uninteresting the movie is. no kidding. but i still love the movie anyway. i will definitely watched the next movie which is if i'm not mistaken Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. have any idea when it will be premiered?

my life have been really hectic in the past weeks. magazine stuff and studies and personal life, things that kept me occupied and caused me to have sleepless nights. what can i say, i'm a workaholic! i realized that i have no idea how to be a magazine editor, there's so much thing to do and more things to learn. ITS DAMN HARD :( at times i feel plain stupid and lost.

here are the pictures from yesterday's late lunch at kenny rogers:

bestfriend yang emo.

perempuan yang ada new bf tapi taknak mengaku. heheh.

siapa ni? dia duduk dekat meja kitorang pastu makan ayam pakai tangan.

bakal ahli kelab used-to-be-a-brace-face!

amer belanja :)

life is sweet.

better than titanic

2009-07-03T04:48:00.000-07:00

these are the few romance movie that i would like to share with you, my wonderful blogworms!

old old old pictures

2009-07-02T22:29:00.000-07:00

today's post is all about the past. way back when i was in form 2.

those good ol' days, there's no chance i'll ever gonna forget all the memories.

meaningful year. the year that i had my first boyfriend :(

*RIP first boyfriend*

i got myself into three different relationship with 3 different guys that year. i admit, i was goddamn stupid at the time.

the year that i had a really big fight at school, with that fugly fat *insert vulgar word here that rhymes with witch*. i was totally innocent, the victim of the situation. haha.

i discover many new things. meet new people that are way beyond my circle of friend. did lotsa stupid things that i felt like doing and definitely worth doing.

its like i see the world with a pair of new eyes when i was in form 2.

cermin toilet rumah shar :)

i still have that shirt and jeans, they still fit. shar (right) on the other hand couldn't fit into her jeans anymore. lol, jangan mengamuk shar.

the most memorable pictures of the bunch (ignore the horny face).
edited by akmalsayang ;)

now i'm 3 years older,
seventeen,
finishing high school,
less drama.

my new featured song is awesome!

i left my footprint on your ass

2009-06-26T00:57:00.000-07:00

like always, i have lots to write about. its been awhile since i my last 'real' post. but nowadays i feel like i can't just write about anything i want here in my blog. because certain things that i would like to write about are rather sensitive, to me and to some people.

although names will be changed, but i know people would still suspect something is not right. and the one situation i can stand being in (besides being ask about my personal life) is when people ask me about the matters of my blog post. its like freaking awkward, man! what's in the blog stays here, reality is another story.

i am a totally different person when i blog, I'll switch into my alter ego character, my own version of Mr. Hyde. haha. and sometimes, things that i write here are written with the purpose of just wanting to let it all go, wanting to release the burden so that i can be free of it to be able to move on with life.

in life, we can't afford to hold on to things that tend to hold us back from reaching whats better in life. for example, bungee jumping. how can you experience the excitement of adrenalin rushing through your veins, which is the main purpose of bungee jumping, if you don't let your hands off the railing?

let go, don't think too much of what might come next, be a free man. a free man is a happy man :) that's what I'm doing, letting go of whatever that upsets me.

DON'T SAY YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET GO. WELL, I'M GONNA TEACH YOU HOW.

you're gonna have to let yourself feel the pain, embrace it, live it, love it baby! tell yourself that there are more pain to feel in days to come and this is just like a pinch on the arm. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

learn from it. look back and see where you went wrong. put your ego aside and admit it that you did mess up, but never ever ever feel bad about it. everyone make mistakes! you can't turn back time and fix it, can you? what you can do is learn from it and try not to repeat it again in the future.

when you're ready, create an imaginary box with pretty flower and butterfly prints on it. fill the box with all the sadness, anger, frustrations and bad memories before putting the cover on and tying it securely with a red ribbon with yellow polka dots.

now put that box on the roadside of your life, wave goodbye to it with a smile and walk forward.

continue on with your life and when you've achieve what you wanted but didn't get the chance to have it before, then you shall take a look back and you will see that very box by the roadside with that red ribbon with yellow polka dots and pretty flower and butterfly prints.

and you'll say, "what a pretty box, i wonder what's in it?"

but you will have better things to do like drinking tropical punch with a slice of pineapple and a mini umbrella on the rim by the beautiful beach of your imagination than wasting your time opening that pretty-looking box.

bing!

2009-06-22T05:18:00.000-07:00

"I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier,

I know that the clubs are weapons of war,

I know that diamonds mean money for this art,

But that's not the shape of my heart."

-sugababes feat sting.

its rockin

2009-06-20T09:26:00.000-07:00

EDITORIAL BOARD MEETING

Monday, 22 June 2009

1.40 - 2.30 pm

ruang legar

be prepared with ideas,

bring whatever necessary,

be there or be square :)

yours faithfully,

holiday's over, get back to work

2009-06-18T04:55:00.000-07:00

firstly, i'm writing it here because i'm too lazy to log in into the permata blog. so yeah, listen people.

ed board members, please la be proactive. start doing your job from now. sorry i can't always tell u what to do. i think what i've explained to u guys are enough.

and sorry for the slow progress of the magazine. blame the exam. now we're doing all the reports on the events that took place at school. and the pictures just arrived, i'm sorting them out to be send to the printer.

fund-raisers, start selling the advertisements. creatives, now is the perfect time for u guys to design the cover and stuff. photography? *crickets* i wonder why i'm getting all the pictures from teacher? whyyy? and reporters, well, all i know is that syazana and azlyn is doing all the work.

and to anyone out there who have ideas that u wanna share to make the magazine more interesting, just see me okay. i'll be beyond happy if u could contribute some ideas, cause i'm running out of them.

n regarding the senior page, i've been informed that some classes are having issues on who should design the senior page. why don't u guys design it together? its best that the pages are not being divided between groups and being design by different groups. thats just wrong people, where's the unity? anyway, as long as the pictures are appropriate (no obscene pictures), then it should be okay.

anddd, last but not least, there might be a meeting next week. just wait for the announcement. most probably on wednesday, after school. make yourselves available on that day. i really really really appreciate it if all of you, the ed boards, could make it.

yours truly,

tweet tweet!

2009-06-15T08:47:00.000-07:00

i am getting addicted to twitter.

simply cause i can crap all i want like nobody's business there.

yeah, i do crap shit a lot these days.

i find it very therapeutic.

<3<3<3 them

maybe i'm not always there with them,

but i am always there for them.

i love you so very very much!

i'm like a fertility charm or what

2009-06-12T22:49:00.000-07:00

its like every time I'm near animals, they tend to get horny and mate with each other. I'll share with u my experience.

situation 1:

i went to pavilion with my aunty last last weekend. we had lunch at the food republic there since we couldn't decide which restaurant to go. while i was eating my not-so-delicious prawn mee, along came a pair of flies flying happily near my left shoulder. i was like, whaddefak with these flies! don't they have somewhere else to be! this is frigging pavilion, how can there be flies!

i tried to shoo them away but they're just too stubborn i guess. maybe it was my prawn mee that attracted them, but they just flew near my left arm only! how annoying! my aunt who was observing finally said, "maybe they wanna get married." in other words, they're trying to make love with each other. yeah, i think so too. but get a room or something, not on my arm!

situation 2:

last week, i was forced by my parents to follow them back to our hometown in muar. the journey took twice the time we usually travel, there was heavy traffic on the way there. blame the holidays! we arrived in the evening. so as usual, when we're in muar, always ask my parents to take us to the tanjung, a place near the muar river bank. what is special about that place is that there are a lot of monkeys there. and visitors are allowed to feed them.

we bought 3 packets of peanut and i took one of them and fed a female monkey. she ate the peanut so happily. behind me was a male monkey, i offer a peanut to him but he rejected it, so i assumed that he's not hungry. the suddenly, that male monkey walk towards the female monkey and he HUMPS on her! right in front of my eyes! i quickly shouted at my father who was standing beside me, "ABAH!! DIORANG TENGAH MATING!!" lucky me, there was a whole bunch of crowd at the very place and i bet all of them heard what i said. some of them were laughing and some was just speechless. once again, thanks to that horny monkey, i managed to embarrass myself in public.

situation 3:

my uncle has like a rabbit farm or something at his backyard in my hometown. whenever i went back there, i just couldn't resist to play with the cute little rabbits. one day, i went to the rabbit house to check out on the baby rabbits. i stop at a cage to see these two rabbits playing catch with each other. ohhh, how cute! i thought. but what happened after that wasn't cute at all. out of a sudden, one of the rabbit jumped onto the other and started humping. just like thatttt y'all. no wonder they were running around the cage happily like nobody's business. i thought i was watching animal planet on tv!

maybe i am a fertility goddess after all.

should try being around humans and see what happens.

harhar!

as if you know who they are,

2009-06-04T23:22:00.000-07:00

siapa yang dalam dunia ni tak rasa kawan dia is the best in the world? semua orang akan cakap kawan diorg yang paling baik, yang paling cool, yang paling fun. kenapa? because they're ours! we chose to befriends with them. we know we made the right choice.

persoalannya, is it fair if kita nak cakap kawan orang lain teruk? i mean, just because kita tak kenal kawan orang tu, and kawan orang tu tak macam kawan kita, boleh ke kita nak terus judge benda yang bukan2 dekat orang tu and kawan dia?

for instance, a guy told a girl to be careful with who she makes friends with. this guy reminded the girl that people cannot be trusted, not even her friends. he said he knows well enough about people and dia banyak pengalaman whatsoever.

is it fair?

i'm sure that guy pun ada kawan kan. apa dia akan rasa if orang cakap dekat dia "eh, u shouldn't trust your own friends. they're not what u think they are."

we SHOULD trust our friends. because if we don't, who else should we trust then?

the purpose of having a friend is so that we can depend on each other. we know that we can depend on a friend is when we feel that no matter what happen to this crazy world, we can always count on our friend. in order to have a long lasting friendship, the most basic thing we need to have is trust. without trust, there will be doubt, and when there's doubt, there's not gonna be any friendship!

and what are we without friends?

we don't need to judge other people's friends because each of us is blessed with our own circle of friends. just because we feel that our friends are the greatest, it doesn't mean that other people's friends are not as good as ours.

my friends are the greatest in the whole wide world and i couldn't ask for anything better. i know who they really are inside out and i know i will be alright whenever i am with them.

i just hate it when people starts to talk bad about my friends.

tau la kawan2 kau macam sial kan?

note to self

2009-06-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

do i smoke?

no.

do i drink?

no.

do i take weed/ice ice baby?

no.

do i shisha?

no.

do i sneak out?

no.

have i ever been to a club before?

no.

am i a party animal?

no.

have i ever watch porn before?

no.

have i ever been out alone with a guy before?

no.

whats the worst thing i've ever done with a guy?

hold hands.

am i a virgin?

hell yeah.

and why aren't they satisfied yet?

because they only see the bad things i've done, not the bad things that i've avoided myself from doing.

what's their definition of wild?

go out for a dinner with a girl and 3 other guys at a decent restaurant with so many other normal people until 10pm.

how do i feel about that?

confused.

i'm not that ego after all.

2009-06-02T04:50:00.000-07:00

i used to say that i don't need a boyfriend to have fun. independant women like me dont depend on guys to make us feel worth it. thats the truth of the situation. after being in 5 relationships where 3 of them are very shitty and sadly all of them ends up badly, its no surprise that the idea of self dependent is somehow drilled to my mind. and also being brought up in a family which in my opinion i think is dominated by the women, i trully, absolutely believe it.

nowadays its really hard to find a decent guy who has the basic qualities that a guy should have. i'm sure most of u guys out there disagree with me and say, "hek elehhhh, die ni baru putus cinta 5 kali dah cakap benci lelaki" or "cehh, macam semua perempuan dlm dunia ni baik sangat." bla bla blaaa. u know what? i dun freaking care. because:

1. 5 times IS a lot and people should not be surprise if i become a lesbian by now, which i'm not.

2. i don't hate guys. i love them. except the minority who gave the other half a bad name.

3. yes, there are girls who are shitty too. but why should i talk about them here? i'm not concern about them because we are the same species. i'm only interested to talk about the opposite sex. wouldnt it be weird if i talk about girls here? major ewww!

by saying this, it doesnt mean that i'm gonna grow up and marry a girl in the future. i ain't no lesbo i tell ya. i will eventually marry a guy, if i'm lucky enough to ever find a fine one someday. YES, I WILL MARRY A GUY, ONE WHO HAS A PENIS AND A PAIR OF TESTICLES. please don't misunderstand and think that i'm a true feminist who only go for the same sex. thats totally not gonna happen!

but today, i feel like i miss being in a relationship which i can commit to. u know, have a tough and strong shoulder to cry on, a person i can talk crap to, a friend to share everything with without feeling awkward and guilty, a person i can go out with without having to deal with the gossips and rumours that follows afterwards. in simpler words, a person that is officially mine! woahh, that sounds very selfish, but what the heck! hahaha.

i still think that i don't need to find a guy to be happy. but i think its much better to have a guy to share the happiness with.

i'm not pathetic, just melodramatic.

party 100 feet from the ground

2009-05-30T01:33:00.000-07:00

PARTY TIME !!!!

TICKET: RM 20 per person

THERE'LL BE GOOD FOOD, GOOD MUSIC, DANCE FLOOR, AND MUCH MORE!!

EVERYBODY WHO IS ANYBODY WILL BE THERE.

SO DON'T MISS OUT!!

what the world need to know

2009-05-27T05:33:00.000-07:00

i hate to find that i left my pencil case at home.

i hate drinking warm milk.

i hate waking up from my evening nap with a heavy headache.

i hate waiting.

i hate it when my hair becomes oily at the end of the day.

i hate dealing with neighbours.

i hate guys who makes noises when they see a girl.

i hate it when my plant in the garden wilts.

i hate being in crowded places.

i hate ikan kembung.

i hate sleeping in the dark.

i hate bloated tummy.

i hate certain people who doesn't know when to grow up.

i hate watching movies alone.

i hate uncivilised people.

i hate being late.

i hate PMS.

i hate warm nights.

i hate foods that lacks tender love and care.

i hate unsuccessful baking attempt.

i hate rude waiters/waitresses.

i hate songs that discriminates women.

i hate injustice.

i hate guys who doesn't know how to treat a girl.

i hate cruelty against animals.

i hate bad hair days.

i hate people who doesn't return my smile.

i hate being unimportant.

i hate going to school on saturdays.

i hate crying.

i hate the feeling of regret.

i hate being in a position where i have to make a choice.

i hate sean kingston n soulja boy.

now u know why i always whine about almost everything.

guess who didnt fail her addmaths this time?

2009-05-27T04:29:00.000-07:00

guess guess guess!!

*drum roll*

jeng jeng jengggggggggg....

yours truly of course!

for the very first time in my life, i managed NOT to get 9G for the toughest subject ever.

although i didn't get 1A, only 4B, passing the subject is good enough. that's just what i was hoping to achieve for this midterm exam.

finally, i can give myself a pat on the back and say, *good job far, well done* :')

for trials, i'm gonna try to get this!

then, i shall reward myself with this!

or this!

or probably this!

ahhh, i sure know how to motivate myself ^^

random pictures

2009-05-20T06:02:00.000-07:00

peedee holiday

newborn rabbits

slightly older ones

peaches n cream

gray, the favourite one

kim leng's bakery and cafe, home of this best ice kacang in the world!

rock, pebbles, stone

milo, mummy dearest.

cutting mummy's homemade birthday cake.

bekalan udara

2009-05-20T00:54:00.000-07:00

did u know that my birthday is 8 months from now?

better yet, christmas is 7 months away.

i know u guys must be wondering what present to get me this year.

well, wonder no moreee!

i'll be more than happy to make your life easier.

tadaaaa!!!

the amazing air supply is performing right here in malaysia!

although i don't celebrate christmas, u can still buy me the ticket as an appreciation gift for being a good friend. haha, it would also be a great advance birthday gift :)

in other words, i'm dying to go but too little too broke. haha.

its 27 days from today,

and that is on tuesday, 16th of june 2009 at KL Hilton.

who doesnt love air supply?

even the macho-est man listen to air supply's songs after having a big fight with the girlfriend.

haaa, am i rite or am i damn rite, macho men?

so, what are you waiting for?

let's go together-gether to watch this two rockin' old guys perform!

buy me a dream catcher!

2009-05-08T05:28:00.000-07:00

have u ever experienced having really really weird dreams? i get them a lot lately. like a few nights back, i dreamt of my late granduncle whom passed away recently. i dreamt about him twice this week! its not weird or anything, but it's just sad for me 'cause i do miss him terribly.

and yesterday, i dreamt of a guy friend of mine. in my dream, he n his family visited my family at our house. and we were like very close and like both families agreed to make me marry him although we're not really in love with each other, in real life atleast. i tell ya, nothing is scarier than having to marry someone u don't truly love. so cliche!

the thing is about these dreams is that i don't know where they come from! my mind was clear from any thoughts before i went to bed, but suddenly i have these weird and unexplained random dreams. my subconscious mind is really driving me nuts these days. or maybe somebody should fire mr. sandman for giving me such horrible dreams! get it??? mr. sandman??? am i the only one who's laughing????

oh well, stop and drop the topic. good news alert! Milo just gave birth to 3 cute, fat, fluffy and smelly little furballs. by furballs i mean kittens, not the real furball that cats usually cough out. hahaha, imagine milo give birth to furballs. "PLOOOP! arghh, is this what i get after making out with that persian cat?!" okay, so lame.

anyway, they're so beautiful i just wanna eat them alive! guess what their names are?

rock (boy)

stone (boy)

pebbles (girl)

very cool names, aite? i'm so genius i amaze myself. harharhar. pictures will come soon enough. my camera cable is with john, i'll upload their pictures when i get it back.

later, blogworms! <3

rockaholic!

2009-05-06T09:26:00.000-07:00

my passion for blogging has washed down the drain :)

i'm sucha sucker, i know. haha.

okay, so for the next 3 weeks, i'm gonna be in my exam mode.

hows exam mode really?

well, i'm gonna be all dull and spiritless and boring and NERD.

wait! i'm like that all the time, aren't i? lol.

i'm so looking forward for the long holiday after the exam.

so many movies to watch!

can i quit school and become a full time movie watcher?

lol, such job only exist in my dreams!

i'm so messed up inside i dont even know how to deal with myself anymore.

i'm so UNWORTHY.

shadap now?

alrite,

bye bitches. <3

ps: good luck for your exam, dudes/dudettes.

guys nowadays

2009-05-02T11:26:00.000-07:00

siapa suka myscene?

alaaa, yang dolls semua tu.

well, diorg ada website yang sangat cool.

boleh main game semua.

http://www.myscene.com/

its very addictive!

tak percaya tanya amer arif.

dia ajak i main 2 minit yang lepas.

creepy, man.

perempuan comel dan kereta

2009-04-30T07:49:00.000-07:00

oh tuhanku, saya sangat merindui blogging. selalu takde masa nak duduk dengan aman dan mengetaip entry2 baru yang menarik. selalu saja sibuk dengan sekolah dan keluarga dan kucing dan boyfriend. harhar. okay sekarang ada masa sikit untuk meluangkan masa bersama anda semua. oleh kerana sudah gian hendak menaip, maka saya akan menulis tentang sesuatu yang spontan dan tidak dirancang.

sebentar tadi saya dengan baik hatinya telah menemani abah untuk mengambil abang kedua di college yang terletak di cheras. memang setiap minggu pun abang kedua balik rumah. memandangkan kereta trajet abah telah dihantar untuk repair kerana masalah brek, maka kami pun menaiki kereta abang pertama yang baru dibeli minggu lalu.

saya agak excited nak ikut sebab saya suka naik kereta baru. jakun sungguh. takdelah, sebenarnya saya suka naik kereta yg kecil kerana rasa macam nak drive sendiri je. sangat mengujakan! bila naik kereta dengan abah, saya suka tengok kereta2 yang lalu dan jika saya meminati kereta tersebut, saya pasti akan bertanyakan tentang harga kereta itu. dan sekali sekala memberi sedikit hint kepada abah seperti, "abah, nanti awa dah habis sekolah awa nak kereta tu." ye, aku selalu rasa macam bapak aku kerja cop duit.

haritu otw pegi tuition nampak HUMMER doe! HUMMER dekat area subang!!! macam jumpa beg prada original dekat kedai bundle weh. fyi, hummer telah menjadi kereta idaman saya sejak form3 lagi. tapi saya nak hummer merah okay. kalau bukan merah, sorryyy. today nampak porsche baxter tak silap dekat taipan. then nampak fierce red mitsubishi evolution macam yang dalam tokyo drift whatever tu dekat highway. last sunday dapat rasa naik porsche cayman, gila cool.

okay, berbalik kepada cerita kita. mula mula keluar subang perjalanan berjalan lancar. masuk area bukit jalil jam teruk macam haram. berapa kilometer jauh pun xtau la. tiba tiba! tengah dalam jam tu kereta abang pertama itu berhenti, enjin mati. imagine diri anda tersadai di tengah2 lebuhraya yang tengah sesak, malu dan panik tak terkata. tapi nasib baik boleh start balik.

maka kami pun meneruskan perjalanan. beberapa meter lepas tu, enjin mati lagi! dah cuba start balik tapi gagal. masa tu abah dah panik, "awa! nak buat ape ni?! kena tolak lah macam ni!" monolog dalaman, "huish, kena tolak kereta? jatuh saham nih." tapi saya reply, "relax abah, cuba try start lagi skali." dengan kata2 hikmat saya maka kereta itupun boleh hidup.

lepas tu terus patah balik rumah tak berani drive jauh2. nasib baik tersadai dalam jam, walaupun malaysia ni rakyatnya sungguh tidak penyabar. nak hon hon, tak reti sabar @#^&%^&$%?. imagine kalau tengah syok drive 120km/h dekat right lane kan, tiba2 kereta mati. confirm mati kena sondol dengan kereta belakang. fuh, i'm so lucky.

the end.

the next obsession

2009-04-29T05:21:00.000-07:00

NEW MOON

the movieeee!

20th of november 2009

7 more months.

yeay yeay!!!

*wide starry-eyed smile*

anyone wants to be my movie date?

;)

what a dream!

2009-04-16T22:45:00.000-07:00

last night i was super tired and super emotional after listening to eric clapton's you look wonderful tonight. that song just stabs my heart without mercy. so i went to bed earlier than usual. thennn, this when the scariest thing happened.

i had a very weird dream. and in my dream, i was pregnant. PREGNANT! i can actually feel the pain of carrying a baby in my belly. so heavy till it felt like my belly gonna burst out! mainly, my dream was about me going through pregnancy life with the help of my family. sadly, without any husband. sighh.

i can't remember how i end up getting pregnant and with whom i 'did it' with but i do remember that i was young and still schooling at the time. i remembered this inner monologue that i had..

"ohhh, look at my other friends. they're still in school having fun and being young and irresponsible and happy all the time. but look at me, i look ugly and fat with this baby in my tummy. oh how am i gonna take care of this baby with no money. where's the father of this child?!!! that irresponsible son of a b***h!!!"

my parents, family and friends were all very supportive and totally cool with me being pregnant. like juno's parents in that juno movie. there's this part when i tried to stand up and i felt a terrible pain form 'down there'. when i checked, i straight away shouted..

"myyyy waterrrrr brokeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!"

i shouted like a crazy women. my mum was panicking and she tried to check under my dress, "eh, tengok sikit" arghh!##^$&%*&%*%@ later they rushed me to the hospital. the moment i was about to deliver the baby on top of that delivery bed......I WOKE UP.

now i'm thinking twice about having a child of my own -.-"

calling all blogreaders!

2009-04-16T02:48:00.000-07:00

i need a little favor from u guys/chics/hotties/hotstuffs :)

can anyone recommend to me a good/reliable tshirt printing company?

translation:

boleh tak siapa-siapa syorkan kepada saya satu syarikat pencetak kemeja T yang bagus?

if possible, somewhere around subang/puchong/shah alam for convinience sake. but anywhere will do, as long as they can produce good quality stuff.

i need it to make our SECRET WEAPON for kelab permata. *cheeky evil laugh*

if u do have anything to share regarding this, don't hesitate to leave a comment here in my humble blog.

thank you for reading :)

awake

2009-04-14T09:38:00.000-07:00

current soundtrack: all about loving you-bon jovi

jon bon jovi is a sexy old man. i see my dream husband material in him. :)

i've always been a subject of accusations. when there's a mistake, even when i'm innocent, i'm gonna be the person to be pointed fingers at. sometimes i find this very amusing! like today at school, pn. rina told me to finish the permata job that she 'gave me in her thumbdrive yesterday'. i was concentrating on my karangan, shocked and i said, huh, mane ade cikgu bagi saya. then she said, ohhh kamu jangan cakap tak, saya dah bagi kan semalam. then syazana who was sitting beside me suddenly interupt, cikgu bagi kat saya kan? damn son. farhana was like, kesian farah ohh, selalu kena tuduh. i know, what an unfortunate child i am. totally need a plastic surgery to change this "guilty" face into a more "innocent" face.

so into anne frank stuff lately. she lived such a short life. but she left a big impression on many people even after she died at the age of 13, fulfilling her dream to still continue on 'living' even after she's gone. i'm 17 and i've not yet accomplished many of my life goals. now i'm inspiried to start my own diary/journal. i'll start off by writing letters for my loved ones for them to read after i'm gone. just in case i'm fated to leave this world at early age :) we all have to prepare in some ways rite? okay, dah stop bersedih rakan-rakan. this is just a thought, they come ever so randomly.

hoping can be the only thing worth doing when everything else fail.

but hoping for something uncertain will only make one look stupid.

i should have punched her in the face

2009-04-12T08:16:00.000-07:00

guess who i just met yesterday at lunch? CROAKIE'S MOM and dad. that mother chucker, out of all the people in the world, why her? just ruin my mood for the rest of the day. on the other hand, i feel rather glad that i was rude to her. I DIDNT SHAKE HER HAND. yeah, thats rude ya know. cause croakie's dad (whom i have no issues with, he's cool) and my dad are friends. so it was only polite for me if i shake her hand, which i didnt. my parents weren't happy with the way i behaved, but they understand perfectly the reason behind my action. my mom even said that croakie's mom looked uglier (she said 'less pretty' but uglier sounds better) since she last saw her. I WONDER WHY? :P

i came to realize that i might be able to fix my friendship with croakie someday. but i can never, let me repeat, ehemmm, NEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR make peace with her mom.

crunch time!

2009-04-10T11:00:00.000-07:00

i went to sunway with syazana this evening. by the time i got home i was so drained out of energy that i fell asleep when its only 9.30pm. around 10.30 i was woken up by emak, she asked me to eat satay kajang that she bought. but when i went downstairs, i accidentally fell asleep on the sofa, again. WHY AM I SO TIRED ALL THE TIME? I FEEL LIKE I'M OLD BECAUSE ONLY OLD PEOPLE GET TIRED! i guess i'm not young anymore. then, i woke up at 1.30 only to find that all the satays was gone :( kempunan lah sial

now its 2.10am; can't sleep, can't eat, so i decided to blog.

as requested, i'll write bout my new boyfriend,

JACOB MANN.

when i was at haiqal's the other day, we watched this tv show called wipeout while waiting for aizat to pick us up. this show is so out of this world! its actually just a normal game show but the contestants are hilarious! i salute their braveness to humiliate themselves on national tv.

among the contestants, a guy named jacob mann really stood out. why? check this out.

i laughed so hard that i felt like i'm gonna die due to lack of oxygen to the brain. he was so damn confident at first but chickened out halfway. and just listen to the commentator/host whatever u call it, they're so mean and funny at the same time.

goodbye jacob black, i got jacob mann now. that split is so sexy!

u can watch wipeout on channel 701, AXN.

can you shake for me?

2009-04-06T23:53:00.000-07:00

smk usj 13's sports day was awesome! despite all the pre-event drama, i had lotsa fun.

i did some shaking too :)

guess which one is me? the most sakai, ofcourse.

i'm so damn lazy to write bout the sports day. all i can say is that it was worth the sunburn :)

somebody's getting older today!

2009-04-06T07:17:00.000-07:00

haiqal azry

HAPPEE 20th BIRTHDAE!

don't forget your roots. -.-"

sharinna yang comel sedang makan wafflewithdoublescoopicecreamandextrabutterandsyrup.

bersama birthday boy. semestinya posing maut.

look at this fat thing! haiqal, i tau u bg dia makan tikus senyap2 sebab tu dia chubby wubby camni.

lihat perbezaan. takde beza?

zaman muda2 kite. lol.

imagination - part 1

2009-04-03T21:37:00.000-07:00

annie frany said, "i won't fall for jerks."

she hold on to the one person that seems real to her.

tobby tumbkin, the boy who stole her heart.

little did she know that tobby is worst than a jerk.

annie grew attached to tobby and so does tobby to annie.

they both knew it but tobby being very young, he doesnt understand.

finally tobby left annie because tobby thinks he's in love with betty butthead.

annie was devastated but there's tonnes of fishes in the sea.

annie grew up to be a very beautiful girl.

with so many boys begging for her love.

but annie has fallen for too many jerks.

annie knows well enough that guys just wants to get in her pants.

and then annie saw tobby again.

their love story made its comeback somehow.

annie knows she's better than that.

but tobby's love is too strong for annie to ignore.

annie loved tobby with all her heart.

tobby said the same thing and annie believed it.

one day tobby told annie that he can't be with her

tobby is sure that sally stinkass is the right girl for him.

annie knew this was coming.

so annie kept calm and accepted her fate.

not long after that she met harry hotshot.

annie and harry was match made in heaven.

tobby got dumped by sally.

she searched for annie only to find her deeply in love with harry.

tobby begged for a second chance but annie was stronger then.

annie told tobby, "i'm done with jerks."

only now tobby sees that annie is the right one for him.

but its no use now because annie will never be his again.

tobby tried to find a girl like annie but failed everytime.

now annie is in bed with harry and laughing at tobby.

THE END

croakie

2009-04-03T05:26:00.000-07:00

now i realize that i'm gonna get a terrible headache everytime i hear people talk in bahasa utara. especially when they talk in maximum speed. ohmygoat, teringat mak ex bestfriend.

talking about that ex bestfriend of mine, lets call her croakie (haha, inside joke). i've been thinking of her alot lately. its not like i'm missing her badly or anything. okay, maybe a little teeny weeny part of me is missing her. the friendship that we had, not so sure whether its a true one or not. nahh, who cares. let the past stay in the past.

sera had once asked me, "don't u wanna make peace with croakie?" and i thought to myself, yeah, why not? its been so long since i saw her. from what i heard she's different now. she has become a brand new person. i'm glad she learnt her lesson. :) but can i still treat her like i used to? i'm not sure bout that. because what she did to us, has left a lasting effect on us, not a pleasant one though. although the pain is gone but the scar is still there. too hard to be ignored.

so i said to sera, "i don't mind being friends with her again, we can hang out and stuff. but things won't be the same again." the truth is it never will. u must be wondering what the hell happen between us and her. well, she betrayed everything that's there to betrayed. enough said.

at times, small things that reminds me of her makes me realize that i do miss her and i still feel like she's part of my life. so i'm willing to put aside my ego and see her to clear things up. if she ever ask to see me, i'll be ready.

in case you're reading this croakie, u know who u are. its okay to apologise and admit you're wrong. we won't bite :)

entry benci lagi

2009-04-02T03:54:00.001-07:00

huish, berapi hatiku. panas panas panas. kenapa baru form 1 dan form 2 dah kurang ajar sangat? berlagak sungguh padahal pmr pun belum lepas lagi.

kalau aku tengah pms, dah kena lempang budak perempuan cina gila tadi. dia ingat dia siapa nak jerit2 kat aku? aku ajak masuk perbarisan je, kalau tak nak pun tak payah la nak jawab macam haram macam aku ni orang gaji dia. next year aku nak make sure juniors kena basuh habis2 biar diorang gentar sikit. kalau tak perangai semua macam elle ay and see ay you. sorry, can't help it :)

bila aku ajak join, semua cakap taknak. pastu mula la bagi alasan bodoh2. macam:

"i'm not interested in joining perbarisan. i don't like it."

"my father won't let me because i'm taking part in running. he scared i'll be tired by then"

"ada kenduri kena balik kampung."

"takde transport nak pegi mpsj."

sekarang ni kau ke bapak kau yang nak masuk? kalau kau boleh masuk lari takkan kau tak boleh nak jalan dan tabik kejap? aku kisah ke kau interested ke tak? kalau betul ada kenduri kenapa lepas aku suruh kau blah kau gelak2 macam kau tipu? rumah kau dengan mpsj 10 kilometer ke?

sports day madness is getting to me. ouch. rasa macam taknak jadi maskot pulak.

kalau aku pakai hula skirt dengan coconut mesti rumah biru menang tanpa bertanding. hahahaa.

my turqoise pinafore

2009-04-01T05:42:00.000-07:00

masa meeting bendahara, semalam.

miss ass: awak kelas ape?

me: 5A, cikgu.

miss ass: hurm, jumpa saya masa rehat nanti. *muka serious*

masa rehat.

me: cikgu nak jumpa saya?

miss ass: yeah. kamu pakai pinafore kan?

me: haah. *muka bingung*

miss ass: skirt kamu pendek mana?

me: paras lutut, cikgu.

miss ass: tak bolehhh. pendek sangat tuh! kena sampai bawah lutut.

me: owh, okayyy.

miss ass: kamu ni butang tak baju dekat dalam? ke biar dedah sexy2?

me: mana ada! saya butang la cikguuuuuu.

miss ass: ni tak boleh pakai pendek2 nii. kita taknak murid perempuan terdedah-dedah ni. pakai la baju kurung. kan manisssss!

me: *smiled*

aku tak pakai pinafore pun masa tu. kenapa nak jugak cari pasal?

so, hari ni aku pakai my 5-inches-above-the-knee pinafore. happy and proud!

puas hati aku dapat mencabar kesabaran kau. aku harap kau gembira.

miss ass sedang menjadikan murid2 perempuan melayu yang pakai pinafore pegi sekolah sebagai sasaran. murid perempuan melayu ada hak untuk pakai pinafore jugak, setaraf dengan murid bukan melayu. setahu aku, dalam rule book sekolah takde pun menyatakan hal ni.

"murid perempuan melayu dilarang memakai pinafore."

atau

"hanya murid bukan melayu sahaja dibenarkan memakai pinafore"

ada keeee?

dengan memakai pinafore tak bererti kami kafir, minum arak, berjudi, mengamalkan seks bebas, hisap dadah atau jual badan. bukan. pinafore hanyalah salah satu seragam sekolah sama macam baju kurung yang boleh dijadikan pilihan untuk pakai pegi sekolah.

kenapa chumi pakai pinafore?

sebab aku confident dan kaki aku tak banyak parut, walaupun berisi dan pucat. last time aku pakai masa darjah satu, masa mula2 start sekolah. sekarang, kat hujung2 zaman persekolahan ni, nak merasa balik. setahun pun jadilah. daripada keempunan nanti dah masuk college menyesal sebab tak pakai pinafore masa highschool. haaa, masa tu takkan nak pegi kuliah pakai pinafore? memang kena baling kasut lah kan sebab orang ingat kau psycho tak puas menikmati zaman kanak2. tak dinafikan salah satu sebab pakai pinafore ialah sebab nak melawa. wanna be on top! haha. tapi siapa yang taknak jadi lawa kan? male readers, aku tau korang pun simpan angan2 nak jadi lawa macam joe jonas, mengaku jelah. dia memang lawa.

my point is, tak adil untuk cikgu mendiskriminasi pelajar perempuan yang pakai pinafore. pakai pinafore bukan bermakna kami sluttish dan bila dah besar nanti jadi GRO. ini hanya keinginan zaman remaja yang perlu dipenuhi sementara kami masih layak bergelar remaja.

dah besar nanti aku pun nak pakai tudung :)

.

2009-03-31T09:17:00.000-07:00

haish.

#^&!$#?%!@

2009-03-30T01:25:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOAT.

faiqah just called me n she said

the school is not providing any fund for us to buy costume materials for this upcoming sports day!

5th of April 2009

this freaking SUNDAY.

WATAHECK MAN?

i've designed the most marvellous costume ever and what am i supposed to use to make it all work?

old newspapers and paint?! this is not project runway, urgh.

the teacher also said that we cannot collect money from each house members, because its against the rule or something. this applies to all sport houses, sadly.

whats gonna happen to our Hawaiian theme and costume?

you just have to wait and see.

whatever happens, bendahara must win.

taylor swift

2009-03-29T23:13:00.000-07:00

He said the way my blue eyes shined

Put those Georgia stars to shame that night

I said: "That's a lie.

Just a boy in a Chevy truck

That had a tendency of gettin' stuck

On backroads at night

And I was right there beside him all summer long

And then the time we woke up to find that summer gone

But when you think Tim McGraw

I hope you think my favorite song

The one we danced to all night long

The moon like a spotlight on the lake

When you think happiness

I hope you think that little black dress

Think of my head on your chest

And my old faded blue jeans

When you think Tim McGraw

I hope you think of me

September saw a month of tears

And thankin' God that you weren't here

To see me like that

But in a box beneath my bed

Is a letter that you never read

From three summers back

It's hard not to find it all a little bitter sweet

And lookin' back on all of that, it's nice to believe

When you think Tim McGraw

I hope you think my favorite song

The one we danced to all night long

The moon like a spotlight on the lake

When you think happiness

I hope you think that little black dress

Think of my head on your chest

And my old faded blue jeans

When you think Tim McGraw

I hope you think of me

And I'm back for the first time since then

I'm standin' on your street

And there's a letter left on your doorstep

And the first thing that you'll read is

When you think Tim McGraw

I hope you think my favorite song

Someday you'll turn your radio on

I hope it takes you back to that place

When you think happiness

I hope you think that little black dress

Think of my head on your chest

And my old faded blue jeans

When you think Tim McGraw

I hope you think of me

Oh, think of me

He said the way my blue eyes shine

Put those Georgia stars to shame that night

I said: "That's a lie"

when what i bake doesnt come out right, that means something's wrong

2009-03-29T22:42:00.001-07:00

today is monday. n once again, i skipped school. why? i am too fat and lazy. i'm wondering what the hell is wrong with me. monday blues disease? really hard to say.

dear god, give me the strength to go through highschool life for another 8 more months. amen.

and tell me why my brownies didnt come out as expected this morning, amen.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

syazana sari bt. mohd ridzwan

grrr

2009-03-28T01:08:00.000-07:00

is respecting your seniors important? HELL YEAH IT IS. whats wrong with the juniors nowadays? they are acting like they're all that when they're actually NOT. i was a junior too once upon a time and i really dont remember behaving like this. all the drama and catfights (yeah, real slapping live show catfight) are getting out of hand. stop thinking like the world revolves around you. and stop pretending to be nice infront of us and turn into a super slutty bitch when we're not looking. stop competing for the spotlight, stop trying to steal people's attentions. we seniors do observe, you just dont realize that.

majority of the juniors, i'm not saying all of you, does not respect us seniors. one day you'll be in our place, and you'll know how annoying and sick it feels when your juniors doesnt respect you. and by then i'll be in college and i'll laugh my evil laugh at you guys and say I TOLD YOU SO.

now i feel much better.

i think i love my juniors :D i have so much loveeeeeeeee to give! nah nah nah, take them all! hahaha. i had fun training them for marching just now. although i kinda suck at it. i have a very funny and small voice that makes me sound silly when i give commands. have to start working on my suara kejantanan from now on.

i have some shopping to do. till then, lotsa love blogworms!

<333

can i just cry now? please? pretty please?

2009-03-25T05:48:00.000-07:00

to start, i'm gonna write bout my frigging exam results.

BM: 77 1A

ENGLISH: 69 3B

HISTORY: 69 3B

AGAMA: 68 3B

EST: 55 5C

MODMATHS: unknown

ADDMATHS: 33 9G

PHYSICS: 67 3B

CHEMISTRY: unknown

BIOLOGY: 40 8E

it is proven that i am no genius no more. :'(

i can't tell u how embarrass i am to display my not-so-cool results here. but i've promised myself that i'm gonna make some improvement and by keeping a record of my results here, and knowing that you guys are reading them and laughing at them, its totally gonna be a motivation for me. take a good look at them, cause u won't see those again for my midterm exam.

i'm soooo gonna drop my EST.

adding to my already unbearable misery, my purse with my I/C and shitload amount of cash went missing on monday. i have no idea where i might have drop it. i'm praying, godddd, please return it back to me. i need that money to buy that supercool tango shoes at vincci. :) well, if i get back my purse with the money still in it, i swear i'll donate some to the charity or something. okay now i sound very despo. ha ha.

i just lost a person that is like a little sister to me. i regret that i did not make any effort to go see her, i didnt even know she was sick. how could i have not known? and she left so fast, so young, so tragic. its feel like only yesterday i went out with her, having lunch and had loads of fun together. haih. this thing makes me realize to not take the people around me, the people i love for granted. cause u just don't know when its their turn to leave this world.

i dont feel lucky, at all. certainly not happy.

did i broke your heart?

did i tore you apart?

you say, "don't worry"

i say, "i'm sorry"

i need motivation, inspiration. you're the perfect thing.

meet this donkey

2009-03-21T04:12:00.000-07:00

which donkey? this donkey :)

saiful sufri

this post is all about revenge. its payback timeeee!

he told me "kau xde point la nak kutuk aku."

u're dead wrong. i know too much about u and u know it.

as u all already know, we've been friends since forever. bla bla. when we're in primary school, this guy is not as cool as he is now. not that he's cool now, but back then he was worst.

let the story begins,

EXHIBIT A

alolololo buchuk2. tak comel kan? standard 4, we were classmates. selalu kena bahan dengan kitorang dlm kelas sbb dia suka baca novel mengarut. shar pernah ckp muka dia mcm badak. taktau asal?

EXHIBIT B

zaman2 tak kurus, tak kenal hair wax, tak beli baju kat topman, tak pkai kasut converse. masih virgin as ever.

EXHIBIT C

hohoho. dah malas sikit. this hair is better than exhibit B, definitely.

EXHIBIT D

girlfriend kau ke ni? aku tau bukan, lawa sangat kottt :D

tapi yang pasti, ini bukanlah filipino chic yang dia *ehem ehem* tempoh hari.

moving on....

EXHIBIT E

i noticed that he loves to take pointless and lame pictures.

here are the prove that i managed to collect.

item 1

one word. APEKAH? nak promote cd pun agak2 la kannn.

item 2

location: taipan, early dawn. motif pakai sunnies: remains a mystery.

item 3

location: same. loner sangat sampai kena ambik gambar pakai timer.

item 4

teknik: masih pakai timer kot. motif: show of guitar?

item 5

in his head: aku rasa aku sexy sebab aku pose kangkang. wtf.

lastly,

EXHIBIT F

buah hati pengarang jantung.

balas, jangan tak balas.

we.love.mr.nosey<3 - part 2

2009-03-20T09:31:00.000-07:00

*drum roll*

ikhwa the hero and MR. NOSEY!

now mr. nosey the scandalous waiter are officially famous.

shocker huh?

2009-03-19T07:56:00.000-07:00

did u know ...

that full cream milk is actually full FAT milk?
i drank a box yesterday :O

and that spicy chicken mc deluxe is much more healthier than chicken mc nuggets?

and that french fries are more carcinogenic than big mac?

and that butter is better than margarine?

and that if u cook olive oil, its not gonna be healthy anymore?

goddamn.

MY HOLIDAY VACATION

i went for a 4 days 3 night vacation. where to? mama miah's house! while i was there, i learnt to cook many things. such as nasi bryani, pineapple tarts, kerabu mangga, orange cake, bla bla bla.

i found the orange cake recipe here. since my grand uncle is sick n he lovesssss orange cake so much, i made him one. the cake was AMAZING. melts in your mouth, even secret recipe cakes cant beat my orange cake. haha, ofcoz i puji lebih la, made it myself maaa.

but some of the people who tasted my orange cake said that the cake was too fancy for their taste. i take that as a compliment anyway. fancy means good to me. :)

some said it tasted like castella, a Japanese version of kuih bahulu. i think so too, coz i've tasted them before, the green tea flavour tasted weird though. cehhh, pasni boleh la jual recipe aku kat castella kan?

. . . . . . . . . . .

one week of holiday is really not enough.

and i just realise that i hate looking at couples walking together, holding hands.

there's a voice in my head screaming and begging me to get a life.

whyyyyyyyyyy?

haha, pathetic.

ehmmm, haih.

2009-03-15T12:11:00.000-07:00

i hope that you don't get the wrong idea of me.
coz it'll break my heart if u do.

i want u to care.

when i grow up

2009-03-15T08:57:00.000-07:00

i'm still wondering what career to choose, so i made a list..

1. psychologist
2. hypnotist
3. editor in chief of seventeen magazine. woahh.
4. pengasas rumah kebajikan for homeless cats.
5. journalist
6. tauke kedai makan.
7. rock band manager
8. wedding planner
9. movie critic
10. full-time blogger
11. shoe collector
12. guru besar tadika kemas
13. professional grocery shopper
14. nature lover
15. owner salah satu outlet MPH
16. soccer mom, if ada anak la.
17. food designer

one for each year I've lived.

i wanna be all of 'em!

up up down down left right left right B A start

2009-03-12T10:09:00.000-07:00

one more paper to go...modmaths, dont let me down.

fly fm might come crash our school tomorrow :)

COOL

i've had the rest of you, now i want the best of you

2009-03-11T06:03:00.000-07:00

Wednesday is add maths day with perumal. weehee.

it rained heavily this evening. the heaven must be really sad coz its been raining a lot lately. can't stand the humidity, too much wetness everywhere. i prefer more sun, the sweet smell of heat in the air. ahhh. i'm definitely a summer girl.

so as usual, reached tuition 10 minutes late. i dunno why i cant be punctual for tuition. i blame the clock there, it's set 10 minutes early :) we learned integration, its much more easier than differentiation. i just love add maths. hahaaaa. *loserrrrr* *nerddddd*

while i was doing my work quietly, well, not really lah. i was passing notes with Evan while doing my work. haha. can u believe he accused me of being a playgirl just because i have * number of ex boyfriends! to me, its not that big of a deal. my past relationships wasn't thattt serious. i was very young back then, and i was in it just for the fun of it. but I'm proud to say that I've become more mature and i see love in a different way now. *pat in the back*

as i was saying, i was doing my calculations.

teacher: "intan pegi mana ni? intan ni selalu sibuk ye? selalu tak datang tuition."

me: "i dunno, teacher." smiled.

teacher: "kamu berdua ni semakin malas ye. sepanjang saya mengajar, tak pernah saya jumpa murid perempuan yang sanagt malas. tahun ini paling teruk."

me: "........" still smiling.

how could he say that?

is it because i didn't come for Monday's extra class because i overslept because i didn't sleep the night before because i was painting banner for the school?

or because i didn't come for class during last year's long holiday because i broke my damn toe?

does that put me in the lazy kid category? its not fair, at all.

i admit his class doesn't interest me like it used to. why? because the respect that i had for him has long gone, washed down the drain, after what he had said about me behind my back. about intan.

i tried to get over it, and failed. i am just putting up with him for just a few more months till i finish high school. after all, i owe him a lot. my momma raised me to be a grateful child :)

terasa sangat. tapi takpe. esok masih ada.

banner kemenangan. sape yang buat?? :D

taknak?

2009-03-10T23:18:00.000-07:00

okehh.

taknak cakap pasal addmaths or chemistry. dumdeedumdidlydum.

taknak cakap pasal cuti jugak.

taknak cakap pasal family. :(

taknak cakap pasal diri sendiri.

taknak cakap dengan awak.

taknak cakap kenapa saya taknak cakap.

1234

2009-03-09T08:52:00.000-07:00

i love you

manis tujuh belas

2009-03-06T06:24:00.000-08:00

norsharinna bt. norshaiddan

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOOBIES! :D

9 and a half things u need to know about this maniac.

1. fashion freako.

2. can transform mydin purchased tshirts into genius outfits.

3. makes the lamest jokes. but we still laugh tho.

4. says the stupidest yet the funniest things. like the bread story during chemistry tuition. haha.

5. stubborn!

6. suka makan sambal dekat kantin sekolah.

7. emo emo emoooo.

8. gangster. hohoo, jatuh saham kau.

9. always thinks that she's not pretty. i bet she'll text me this after reading this entry

"farrrrrrr! kenape awak letak gamba kite yang tu? kite burok gile ohhh..."

hahaha, kan shar?

9 1/2. my bestest best friend. [fana, u are too :)]

yeay, awak dah seventeen.

lagi 3 tahun boleh kawin.

i've been waitingggg

2009-03-06T01:59:00.000-08:00

yeay yeayyy, kuiz kerjaya jatuh pada 18 april 2009.

i'm so ready this year.

help college is sucha *tuuutttt*

why u guys cancelled the workshop last minute?!

hadoih.

write me a love letter and i'll be your girl

2009-03-03T08:09:00.000-08:00

my sister got a letter from her boyfie today which she showed me during lunch.
(sorry to break it to you amer arif, but her heart is already taken) ;P

wrote in pink and red magic pen, he asked her to watch happy tree friends on youtube.

she's barely 8 and she already knows about youtube!

i didnt know how to turn on the damn computer till i was 11.

back to the main story here.

i'm 17 and i dont get a single love letter? pityful!

i still remember when i was 14, a senior who shared desk with me left a note under the desk for me. i was in the evening session, he's in the morning. practically, we shared class.

i was still young back then, so as u can guess i replied the letter.

and guess what? he left me some chocolates under the table the next day!

the letters stopped coming one day, after a little argument occur between us.

it turned out that someone had gave him a warning not to mess with me.

i didnt mind though, he was too freaky. he stalks me.

hopefully, one lucky day, there'll be a note or something under my desk when i go to school...

or a letter addressed to me in the mailbox on a sunday morning...

or a bouquet of white roses for me on my steps when i came back from school...

or a jar full of chupa chups sent anonymously to me...

or....or....or... use your own imagination please!

to be a politician is the last thing on my list

2009-03-03T07:21:00.000-08:00

i think our politics are immature. the politicians, they remind me of high school boys and girls.

when the juniors cari pasal with the seniors, and the seniors wants to get even, they'll say

"jom lah kita settle luar sekolah!"

followed by the f word, l word, b word, p word.

and then after school they'll gather in the park to watch a live show.

till the police patrol car had to come and break the fight.

or when the high school girls start to create dramas.

like if they hate a girl, they'll bitch about her,

call her names, make sure nobody is to be friends with her,

back stab her, write mean stuffs about her on the toilet wall.

till at last the poor girl will eventually surrender.

either shifting school,

or being admitted in a mental institution,

or just die, suicide.

if that's the case, i can do a better job than some of them.

vote for me! :)

I'm sure i can think of better dramas to create in the parliament.

geehee.

pardon me for speaking my mind ever so loudly.

purplenies, rednies, yellownies, BROWNIES

2009-03-01T09:07:00.000-08:00

usaha untuk menggemukkan badan berjaya.

saya telah membuat ini dan ia sangat sedap.

esok haruslah bangun subuh untuk memulakan usaha membuang ribuan kalori yang berjaya dikumpul dengan memakan benda itu.

dan juga benda ini.

terima kasih anna olson!

oh kenapaaaaaa

2009-03-01T08:21:00.000-08:00

cancer. it's such a big word. it'll be bigger if it applies to you.

let say. one day you're having a very bad headache. the next day, the doctor diagnosed u with a lung cancer.

"whats that gotta do with the very bad headache?" u may ask.

well, the cancer has reached a critical state and it has already spread to the brain.

now, that's when you realise life is not that long anymore.

i know a person in that situation. a very close person. family, in fact.

suddenly i thought, "why am i acting like everything is normal? i don't feel the sadness."

my theories:
1. i've known him since forever. so eventhough he's all sick, i still see him as the healthy person i've known all my life.

2. i'm just in denial. :) i only see what i want to see, i only feel what i want to feel.

3. i'm pretending to be happy when ever i'm with him so that he feel less like he's dying.

i think i should be sad. i must be sad. this is the perfect situation where i'm allowed to show my capability of being a sensitive person.

but how can i be sad when he's all happy like nothing is wrong with him? so confusing.

we didn't see this one coming, we can't. after all, we're just mere humans, with so many weakness.

all thats left for us to do now just is pray.

we got the blues

2009-02-28T08:30:00.000-08:00

sports day fever.

rumah bendahara rocks your socks!

aku menjadi maskot rumah ini.

nak sapu juara perbarisan rumah sukan yang telah disandang selama

tiga tahun berturut-turut.

mari cakap WOAHHHH! beramai-ramai.

who am i? i'm a true blue :)

choo choo TRAIN

2009-02-28T06:56:00.000-08:00

drops of jupiter

Now that he's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in his hair, hey, hey
He acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from his stay on the moon
He listens like spring and he talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that he's back from that soul vacation
Tracing his way through the constellation, hey, hey
He checks out Mozart while he does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that he's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that he might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

meaningful song :)

farhana si budak baju biru

2009-02-27T03:04:00.000-08:00

26th of february 2009.

semua orang tidak wish dia pada pagi itu. sepanjang hari di dalam kelas kami berpura-pura tidak mengingati bahawa hari tersebut adalah hari jadi dia. setelah dia distribute party pack buatan sendiri kepada kami, kami masih membisu. walaupun jantung/hati rasa nak pecah dihimpit rasa bersalah tahap maksima sebab buat dia emo pada hari jadinya.

masa chemistry kami berdua memang selalu duduk bersama-sama.lepastu gossip pasal orang like nobody's business. haha. dia cerita dekat saya "tadi kan yu fei dengan pengawas pusat sumber lain nyanyikan kite birthday song" saya senyum dan terus tukar topic "awak, kalau ethene jadi ethanol, nonene jadi nonol eh?"

last period, waktu english. 4 orang daripada kami turun awal. kononnye nak jumpa cikgu lah,meeting lah, jual kuih lah, masak maggi lah, cuci baju lah, lol. dia still tidak mengesyaki apa2. kami turun ke kantin dan keluarkan cake dan sedia untuk attack dia.

lepas sahaja loceng berbunyi semua classmate [exclude the other half :P] turun ke kantin dan sorok sorok. sebaik dia tiba, candle pun dah hampir tenggelam dalam cake. ekspresi wajahnya, priceless.

lab partner, gossip partner, go-to girl if tak faham chemistry, partner mengusha juniors.

moist chocolate cake from berry's. we love it, marvellous.

the gossip group

birthday girl and yours truly :)

katy perry

2009-02-27T02:41:00.000-08:00

syazana absent hari ini membuatkan saya gila

2009-02-24T23:47:00.002-08:00

i feel horrible. everything seems so wrong. i'm starting to realize that i ain't what people say i am. i doubt my own capability, my sanity. i can't believe how selfish i can be.

what should i do? i thought i want this so much. i have the perfect vision of what it'll be. i guess thats just not enough, huh?

nobody cares like i do.

gotta drink more coke.

i miss that japanese woman

2009-02-23T06:37:00.000-08:00

i did my weekly email checking this evening. oh boy, was i happy when i saw her name there in my inbox list. yuriko tadakuma. just that simple, wonderful name. happy, sad, excited all mixed up inside of me when i read the content of the mail. happy because i finally get to hear from hear, sad because i miss her so much, excited because i feel like i'm one step closer to stepping my feet in japan.

she said she's been busy with her work. and of course with her band. i saw her pictures and videos at myspace. i soooo look up to her! see what i mean by clicking here. u might not understand what they wrote there because its written mostly in japanese. but try using babel fish web translator, that'll do the trick.

she also said its getting warmer there, already reaching the end of freezing winter season. n just in a few weeks, hellooo springtime! thats when the cherry blossoms or well known as the sakura will bloom gloriously. she spelled it as 'cherry brossam'. haha, thats so cute! imagine her trying to pronounce it. kan orang jepun takleh sebut L. macam cikgu tusyen physics.

yuri and her 92 year old grandma.

i told her bout the school magazine stuff that i'm doing, the reason why i replied her email a month late. n she wanted to read it! that gives me the idea, i'll post it to her when its published! woohoo. the first PERMATA to be post oversea. cool aite?

loves n out!

betul betul betul

2009-02-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

summit rocks. jyeah. hang out with by best man there yesterday. planned to catch a movie but i'm too lazy to queue up. the line was longgg! we ended up just meronggeng around summit eating ice cream n that yummy pulut mangga n talked about stuffs. finally, i got my belated birthday present as promised.

later that evening, my family n us went for dinner. i think that ah pek at the restaurant was interested in saiful. he kept on calling him 'handsome boy' if i'm not mistaken. woahh, i feel so intimidated! edward cullen kan weh? pffft. bullsh*t. gahahaha.

guess what movie we watched that night after dinner? geng upin dan ipin! woohoo. the movie was quite interesting n funny. at first i refused to watch it but i had to since my sister wanted to watch it badly. so sad, i watched it ALONE, coz somebody wanted to go home early and didnt want to accompany me. i didnt manage to get a seat at the same row with my family. so there i was, sitting next to another loner who happens to buy the single seat next to me. the fact that there were no chinese or indians watching that movie is really disturbing.

all the people in the cinema that night were Malay. mostly came with their family. the way they behave in the cinema makes me wonder "is this their first trip to the movies?". seriously, the kids were acting like jakuns n they selamba go n shout n talk n play along the stairs DURING THE SHOW. note to self written parenting 101: do's n don'ts book, teach own children how to behave in cinemas.

the mothers lagi la kan. siap duduk dekat tangga lepastu gelak kuat2 macam cinema tu suami dia punya. lepastu kalau boleh segala makanan dekat popcorn bar tu dia nak angkut buat bekal. apa kata len kali bawak tikar dan nasi lemak sambal tumis dari rumah skali, kan senang.

ni nak cakap psl guitar pulak. my guitar, which i proudly name it ARION, turns out to be sucha loser. i suddenly had the urge to play it last week. when i opened the bag, i saw the strings were all rusty. tak berkualiti punya guitar dari MUSIC WALK. hmphh. i want to change the strings. but then realize its pointless if i dont play it. nanti lama2 berkarat lagi, menyusahkan je.

akhir kata, kita mestilah cari suami yang KUAT!!!

been thinking bout this alot since that someone installed it in my head.

-.-"

:'(

2009-02-20T05:21:00.000-08:00

i hate gossips.

why are we attracted to younger boys?

2009-02-18T04:29:00.000-08:00

because there's no eligible older guys here to flirt with. same age? nahhh, not our thang :D

kan husna, kannn?

*i know she doesnt read this but i still wanna write her name here*

its written on your face, baby

2009-02-18T04:02:00.000-08:00

guys are so easy to read. this is not just a random fact. it is based on my personal experience. lotsa 'em! haha. sometimes their 'signs' are too obvious to ignore.

like this guy i know. i dont really know what his problem is. but i cant stand those constant glances he likes to give me. i'm NOT trying to blow my own horns here n say that probably he likes me. no, please dont get me wrong. its just an instinct. thats what i call it anyway. because we girls are very intuitive, rite girls? *yeahhhhhhhhh* sebab itu hanya ada naluri keibuan, bukan naluri kebapaan.

so next time if u like a girl, please do keep it to yourself. unless u purposely wants her to know that u like her. otherwise, just put it safely in a box, lock it n throw away the key. habis ceritaaaa. :)

idiotic guys dont deserve a place in this world

2009-02-17T03:23:00.000-08:00

i went for biology tuition today. before class, i headed to the counter to pay my monthly fee. then there's this abang who is super irritating wanna cari pasal with me. who does he think he is? so great lah?

story begins. last month i went for a bio trial class on 13th of january. on the 15th, i went for my 2nd trial which is chemistry class. then, after that class, i went to pay the fees n he insisted that i cant pay for only half the price coz its already the middle of january. so i paid the full fee for 3 subjects. bio, chem n physics. since last month i only paid in the middle of the month [fully], so this month it is fair that i pay on the same date as last month. only that this month i plan on droppin physics coz the teacher is freakin lousy. she cant pronounce L properly. ironically, her name is nicolle -.-"

back to the story. but nooooo. this abang had to cari pasal with me. he said that i must pay full payment this month including the physics fee. means that even if i wanna drop it, i still have to pay full. more irritating is that my friend, who started her class on 15th of january get to pay half the payment for last month. JUST BECAUSE SHE DIDNT GO FOR THE ONE TRIAL CLASS LIKE I DID. does he even know the very definiton of TRIAL CLASS? its for free goddammit! thats why it is called trial, stupidos.

haih, maybe this is too confusing to understand. what i'm trying to say here is that this stupid guy [yang x pergi sekolah n tak ade life n maybe kena dump dengan girlfren die pasal die terlalu loser dan poyo dan annoying n pasal die terlalu overweight n ade masalah self-esteem] is a cheater. he cheats people, innocent people like me yang kalau boleh memang malas nak cari gaduh dengan orang yg terlalu loser mcm die. furthermore, i respect older people. ONLY WHEN THEY'VE EARNED MY RESPECT.

come to think of it, people like him deserve to work in a place like that with that boring job with that low salary. yeah, u really deserve that fat ass. coz if u were smart n brilliant as i am, n have a decent common sense n respect towards others n self dignity like i have, u wont be stuck in that pathetic life of yours. u're such a fucked up person n girls dont even want to have the slightest idea of being with a guy like u. huh. now i'm satisfied. i shouldnt let him get to me like that next time.

now, drop that topic please.

well well well! i've discovered something new today! i am no longer scared of blood. hahaha. bodohnya, nak jd dokter tapi takut darah.

during recess, i went to the ladiesroom [cehh, toilet sudeyy] then, theres this junior girl, she asked farhana whether she have shillings or not. i asked her what are the shillings for? then she said she wanted to buy the sanitary pad from the pad machine. thats when i saw this other girl, who kept wiping her nose which wre bleeding heavily. i coolly asked her what happened n she said she dont know why her nose wont stop bleeding for the past HALF AN HOUR.

she is sure one strong girl coz if it was me in her shoes, i might just pass out n people have to rush me to the ER. n apparently, the pad that her friend wanted to buy earlier was to be used to cover her nose coz the tissues werent enough to contain the blood.. WHAT A GREAT IDEA! i just laughed n offered to buy her tissues form the bookshop. after helping her cleaned up her nose, i went of to class.

i still get the tinge in my toe n that sick feeling at the pitch of my stomach whenever i thought of blood. but i guess i'm used to it by now, after the toe situation [urghh, here comes the tinge] hooray for me :)

scene 2, take 5: juliet kills romeo

2009-02-16T00:21:00.000-08:00

romeo: boleh tak teman aku kat sekola saturday ni?
juliet: malas lah. x suka pegi skola hari sabtu.
romeo: alaaa, please please please? i bought u cadbury chocolate!
juliet: hurmm, tengok lah.

juliet didn't show up at school.

romeo called juliet on the phone.

romeo: asl x dtg skola? jom lepak mamak.
juliet: xnak. malas la.
romeo: kejap je!
juliet: TAKNAK.
romeo: okay, aku datang rumah kau. nak hantar barang.
juliet: tak payah laaa. kat skola je bagi.

romeo texted juliet, expressing his angriness n frustrations. told her he'd thrown the rose he bought for juliet.
juliet got really angry n told romeo to throw the chocolate too.

romeo: die dah janji dengan aku die nk jd date aku utk valentines.
juliet's bestie: wey, there's a big difference between "would you be my valentines?" n "jom teman aku on valentines day?"
romeo: ........

conclusion: he's NOT my romeo.

sesetengah orang memang tak faham bahasa, tak macam kucing saya

2009-02-14T06:46:00.000-08:00

some people don't get it when i said that I AM NOT FREAKING INTERESTED. just back off n leave me alone. stop bugging me or i will make your life much more miserable then it already is. geddit?

calming down...fuh fuh.

moving on.

look at them.

there's a similarity.

little miss emperor/empress. nampak mcm emperor china kan?

miss mole.

charlie chaplin.

they're my grandma's cats.

i think those dark spots on the nose are either the in trend with the cats there or its a cat disease. hahaha, funnay.

cooking n eating are two different things

2009-02-13T19:02:00.000-08:00

i cooked dinner last night.
vermicelli noodle with tom yam

vermicelli is the glamour name for meehoon fyi.

how was it? absolutely delishhh! [as jamie oliver would say]

i give it 12/10

n todayyy, this morning

i made the most freaking awesome urmm, food?

i dunno how to explain the thing but its made from guava

gahahaha, i can officially get married now.

coz i can cook! weehee.

cepat2 lah masuk meminang

sila ambil borang dan beratur dan jangan tolak2 ye :)

see, i can also drive now :D

call it whatever you want :)

this is peepeefeet!

the end of a beginning

*bing!*

if i die young

fish. all of you.

sad sad

saya tidak mahu pulang

you should go through pms, then we'll talk.

i'm back in town!

strawberries and honey combs.

18

the best day

my silly teacher

camerakurakuramarama

limit

what would you do if...

i'm like a dwarf and you're like?

fana's birthday!

team who?

to my pretty boy,

best advice ever

the pretty old haunted castle

i can't smile without youuu.

hiding from the spotlight

why i need barbiturate

chumi and the froggies

me and the paint brush

i am so angry my head can explode.

the forgotten.

not interested

chaos

she's a genius

harry who?

better than titanic

old old old pictures

i left my footprint on your ass

bing!

its rockin

holiday's over, get back to work

tweet tweet!

i'm like a fertility charm or what

as if you know who they are,

note to self

i'm not that ego after all.

party 100 feet from the ground

what the world need to know

guess who didnt fail her addmaths this time?

random pictures

bekalan udara

buy me a dream catcher!

rockaholic!

guys nowadays

perempuan comel dan kereta

the next obsession

what a dream!

calling all blogreaders!

awake

i should have punched her in the face

crunch time!

can you shake for me?

somebody's getting older today!

imagination - part 1

croakie

entry benci lagi

my turqoise pinafore

.

#^*&!$#?*%!@

taylor swift

when what i bake doesnt come out right, that means something's wrong

grrr

can i just cry now? please? pretty please?

meet this donkey

we.love.mr.nosey<3 - part 2

shocker huh?

ehmmm, haih.

when i grow up

up up down down left right left right B A start

i've had the rest of you, now i want the best of you

taknak?

bing!

#^&!$#?%!@